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Tense Week

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I’m tense and it ain’t fun, I’m tense because of past and present issues because of personal and professional issues, because words are left unspoken and if I do speak out I’m not understood. I’m tense because there is an issue that I’m avoiding while I should discuss it by creating the opportunity. I’m tense because others always seem to pull at me whenever I’m in need of solitude, they’re like moths drawn to a flame when all I want is quiet and peace of mind. I’m too tense and what is on the inside starts to show on the outside.

I’m being warned again that I’m handling things the wrong way, that I should act on it and do something about it or it only gets worse, so I can’t ignore no longer. My body is extremely good at forcing me to stop and listen to myself. It started out as headache last week, this week it nearly turned into a migraine. For the last two days my neck and arm becomes all stiff even if I stretch every 10 minutes. I can actually feel the muscles tighten up and no matter how often or how long I stretch, within the hour I’m in pain. Not just any pain, I wish it was…

So I’m gonna listen to my system and reboot: I’m done working today, work can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna reply to any more emails, it can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna answer any phone calls, I’m gonna spend time on fun things like my own projects and enjoying the sun that’s greeting me through the window. Sc£@%w it… I’m always looking after others and who’s looking after me? It can wait… I’ll be soaking in a hot bath because my neck and arm are screaming for heat therapy and relaxation, I could use a good massage too…

Enough is enough right? It’s about time I say no to people… no not today, today I take time for me, maybe tomorrow, but most likely on Monday. Have a wonderful weekend!

© Zesty Gal, I’m off relaxing!

Lama

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JdB, I’ve met her through the store she used to be a customer there, a very special person who helped me find my path by passing on the messages from my ancestors and dad that were meant for me to listen to. A medium who showed me my ancestor’s love and affection and helped me dealing with things in life and making the right choices. Because of her skills I was able to sort out my journey through the messages that my ancestors and father sent me. I had vivid dreams and all sorts of other messages.
She’s an initiated Lama, through studying the wisdom of Buddhism in Tibet for years. A hermit like myself who tend to avoid certain aspects of city life. She healed me through her rituals and helped me opening myself and my chakras for the greater powers and the love and knowledge from my dad and ancestors. I have been transformed by her Tibetan rituals and treatments. Something very powerful and interesting and I could sense the transformation in dreams and daily life whenever I visited her.
We could talk for hours without realising time and space. When I came home I used to be extremely happy, something AS. noticed and told me about. She said goodbye to me last week in an email, something I regret because I won’t be able to see her again before we move. She has become dear to me so all I can do for now is wishing her well fighting her own demons. She will be in my thoughts and hopefully we’ll meet again some day. Thank you dear friend for offering an answer to my questions and showing me the power of a greater spirit.
If it wasn’t for you I would not have known certain things in life nor would I’ve been able to hear my ancestors or fathers calls and warnings. I have confirmation now of what I already knew deep down in my heart and soul. You helped me seeing things that lie beyond this existing world of boundaries, time, materialism and dishonesty that we live in. If I can be true to myself I can be true to others and help them with the skills that were given to me by the great spirit. Thru you I’ve met up with my guides again and found what I was looking for. Thank you for showing me!