Make Up

I’m on the train on my way to work, a new assignment in the middle of nowhere. An hour and half commute three times a week for now and probably four times a week from January. I always sit in the space where people can leave their bikes if they travel with one. There are two different spaces, one that has two extra seats opposite each other where the bike space is next to it -with fold down chairs- along the side of the train. And the other where there are only fold down chairs on both sides of the train.

The latter is a pain because when the train drives you basically move sideways which is nauseating to me at times. Anyway… I’m currently moving sideways as I write this. On my right side are three seats very close to each other.Opposite of me there are four. Because I move sideways I can see the two other people next to me from the corner of my eyes. This is when I noticed that the woman at the far end was doing something I’ve also seen many times on the tube in the UK. She is doing her make-up…

Ever since I’ve seen someone doing this on the tube I’ve mixed feelings about it. Doing your make-up on the train -in my opinion- is something you simply don’t. To me it is something private and I would never do this in public. It already gets on my nerves when I am in the bathroom getting ready and my partner watches closely let alone on a crowded train. In London some of these women would even carry an extra handbag for all the containers with blusher, eyeshadows, lipsticks, foundation and powder.

I have mixed feelings about this because to me it’s something private that you do at home and not on public transport. On the other hand I admire their skills to put it on without smudging their faces. But my goodness… The amount of warpaint that some of them use is shocking! Today the man sitting opposite of me is watching each and every move of the woman on my right with extreme interest. The disapproving look on his face says it all really. I can’t help but grinning quietly as I watch the performance…

Insomnia

I’ve not been feeling well for a while already. Admitting this here on this blog is one major step in the right direction. I have postponed it for months not wanting to deal with it I guess, but here it is. I’m not feeling well. I have been extremely tired because of a lack of sleep. Since December last year my sleeping pattern has been totally out of control ever since I was ill for three weeks. I just realise that is almost a whole year ago…

It has become so bad that the lack of sleep makes me feel desperate at times, and I mean really desperate as in panicking. I can tell it is starting to wear me out as I’m quickly losing weight in my face. I don’t look healthy like I did before, I look ill. It scares me and right now all I can think of is trying ‘again’ to change the pattern and sleep normal regular hours. I had a few attempts already without any success I’m afraid.

But this needs to stop and improve. I wanted to write ‘before it gets really out of hand’, but realised it already is. So I’m planning on an early night, with a book that I would like to finish. Read till about ten and then try do doze off. Let’s see if that will make things better. I really really hope so!