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Pink Confetti

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I’m having a day off in the midst of this five weeks course and it’s a welcome break. I’m having a slight cold today, it’s because the weather has been crazy all week. When I leave in the morning it’s only about 8C° but by the time the course is done it’s about 20C°. Choosing the right things to wear is kinda hard when the weather is like this and would’ve been much easier if I could get to the course by car. But I’m not… I’m cycling each day and it feels great!

On my way there I’m surrounded by nature and each morning I watch birds nesting, green around me getting greener and blossoms being washed down by rain. The wind causes a whirl of nature’s confetti when it touches these tiny pink blossoms lying on the ground. Unfortunately it’s only a matter of weeks or even days -depending on the weather- for the blossoms to be gone again so I’m trying to enjoy them as much as I can while I can…

I had an extremely busy week, running around to get to different appointments. I haven’t had much sleep either worrying too much about stuff that I shouldn’t worry about. I’ve learnt so much about myself especially yesterday when I was told that I should stop being such a perfectionist. That I should cut myself some slack: not to put so much pressure on me by trying to do everything right not allowing myself to make any mistakes.

I had to give a presentation to a group of twelve people: they would ‘judge’ me by giving me feedback on things such as, posture, attitude, facial expression, body language etc. I didn’t have much time to prepare my presentation since I missed quite a few hours of this course having to deal with appointments with municipal offices, providing them with papers and such. The degree of unnecessary bureaucracy in this country still amazes at times.

Anyway, the presentation went extremely well. Something I didn’t expect at all and I was told by the coach to sit back and revel in all the compliments for a change instead of thinking about what could’ve been improved still. I mentioned self-reflection in my previous post but boy, it sure is… and it’s been great so far! The stress has reduced big time after my last appointment on Wednesday when I broke out in tears all of a sudden.

Something that was mentioned touched the right chord at the right time. Some (so-called friends) fail to support me or understand what I’m dealing with, while others (read: strangers at municipal offices) realise what is going on and totally understand how I feel about it all. So I was touched by the empathy and the kind words of this stranger opposite of me, it was liberating to finally get the opportunity to shed those tears after all the stress.

It’s been a strange week but a good one and I’m celebrating new insight by enjoying the free pink confetti party that nature is throwing me!

© Zesty Gal – Pink Confetti, there’s six of them in a row :)

I Choose To

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Oh how peaceful and quiet this blog will be again… I’m trying to regulate traffic: I’d one post still that attracted lots of traffic because it was directly linked to an experiment I took part in two years ago. I’ve moved that post to the blog on my business website, so traffic will be redirected to the proper source from the website it was linked to. I like my peace and quiet especially when I feel that what I write is too personal to share with certain people *wink*. Although I often choose to keep that to myself anyway…

I’m getting rid of links to the past because I want to start with a clean slate and live in the ‘now’. No more referring to and living in the past, I’m through with that and it’s about time that things are put away in the drawers since it’s all unnecessary ballast that I no-longer wish to carry around with me. Been busy last week and there’s still more stuff in the pipeline that I can’t tell about yet but whenever I had a moment I’d been reading my ebook -and listening to its audio version at the same time- while taking notes.

It’s extremely helpful but it’s a bit of a project… one not to be taken lightly… It’s necessary to write a proper plan and think about certain issues and subjects while trying -at the same time- to reprogram your mind and your way of thinking. And if those ways and convictions have been engrained for donkey years than it’s quite the challenge trying to change that. But… I noticed that it works: it makes me feel great if I manage to struggle through another chapter, writing down what I choose/want to remember.

Today I need to wish to update my folio and convert it to a pdf file so I can send it out. And I have to would like to write a letter as well. See how I still make the same mistakes? I don’t have to do anything: I choose to do something *wink* That’s the kind of thing this book teaches you and it feels kind of liberating if you succeed in making these ‘simple’ changes because somehow you can feel the weight being lifted of your shoulders… I like this approach and I guess it’s what I need in my life right now…

I -once again- had to deal with a few disappointments last week (when do I get that well-deserved break? *raising hands to heaven*) but I’m not giving up… far from it… So I’m off again because spring is here, the sun is shining, gorgeous spring flowers like Snowdrops (my favourite) poke their heads above the ground and it lifts my spirit. And while I’m in this mood, I’d like to design a new pdf folio, write a letter and make a follow-up call later today about a new exciting project…

p.s. I’m not around much these days so it might take a bit longer for me to reply to emails or comments…

Gorgeous Snowdrops