Slacker…

I’ve been away for a while, I guess life caugth up with me over the past eight months. Things have been utterly hectic and weird lately in all aspects. My assignment finished in January this year, I was told the second week of December last year just when I was about to take my well-earned two weeks off. Because the board member -responsible for the web team and redesign of the government website- stepped down and removed herself from this project it was cast adrift all of a sudden. Never in my entire career have I faced a situation like this. I was stunned by the unprofessional ways this organisation was dealing with their employees, the repetitive mistakes and the arrogant attitude that came with it. It was like walking through a maze, not sure what to expect around each corner.

And so my assignment ended the day before my birthday, what a coincedence… In the meantime I’d already had two intakes at two different clients. The latter wanted another interview planned as soon as my assignment had ended. Then after I also had to give a presentation including answering questions, and once that was done they would decide if they wanted to take me on for this project. Five minutes after I had held my presentation, -I was on my way back to Amsterdam and just gotten on the train when I received a call- I was told that I was hired for the project. I was surprised because I didn’t know what to expect after giving this presentation to about fifteen people. I guess I must have left a good impression with at least half of the group or else they wouldn’t have hired me ;)

Things went all way too fast as I didn’t have a moment to relax and adjust to the new situation. Last time I was in between projects I had a few months where I could relax a bit, finish work-related administration, backup files and documents, and get my Mac ready for the next assignment. This time, I only had five days of which three were over the weekend. So yes things have been pretty hectic since and I’ve been juggling work, ‘me-time’ and the demands of daily life in general. It’s one of the largest projects I’ve worked on so far as it involves three levels of government, municipal, provincial and the water boards (the oldest government authorities in the Netherlands). This makes it all very complex, but at the same time it’s a really cool experience and a great opportunity to gain knowledge!

Then at the beginning of this month our department moved further south, so my already long distance commute doubled in km and time. It’s ok for now, the project is worth the trip but I’m not sure if I can keep up with this for a couple of years. I’m already told that if they’re happy with my skills and input, I could easily have this assignment extended to up to three to five years at least (…). I’m trying to get approval to work from home one day per week which will give me an extra two hours in the morning to catch up on sleep and I could do some chores during the day. Yup, I have been a total blog slacker but it has been out of my control all these months. Whenever I started to write I couldn’t finish due to a serious lack of time. I will try and write at least once a month and I’ll catch up when I can ;)

Delay

It’s one of those days where you get up and know everything will go wrong… I’m on the train and it already has a 15 minutes delay due to the fact that another broke down in the north of this speck on the globe. In that area there’s only two tracks, one for each train, each way. So when a train breaks down they all pile up like one happy family. Since they run every 15 minutes you probably can do the math yourself.

I’m on the train and I know for sure that I’ll be late eventhough I was actually running late already. This was the train that I was supposed to take anyway… I will be late but I can’t really be bothered. At times you have to let go of the timetables in your head because if you don’t, stuff is going to pile up just like those trains. So I decided to let go and trust that things will work out eventually. It will all fall in place…

That’s not what I was thinking tho this morning when I accidentally smudged and stained eyeliner all over my mouth and chin and my first thought was ‘wtf…’ That’s not what I was thinking when I got dressed and whilst doing my hair, trying to get ready to get to work asap. It wasn’t the kind of morning I was expecting at all when I woke up, still tired and wanting to sleep forever.

I’m on the bus now and even the bus is running late but like I said earlier I can’t be bothered. It’s pissing down with rain today -the sky is totally grey- so it’s gonna rain all day long, but I can’t be bothered. Honestly… It’s like I’ve given up, coz I know I can’t do a thing about it. I have no control over any of this so why would I try to go against it? I would only start to frustrate myself in doing so. So I don’t.

I’m sure things will turn out alright eventually, I’m sure there is a bigger plan today that is going to make things right, the moment I’ll trust it to do what it’s supposed to do. So I’m going to finish writing and have a look around me instead. Grey skies, watery images and the smell of wet raincoats on a lovely dreary day ;) I’d better stop writing or else I might become bus sick and puke allover myself… *hehe*

Have a beautiful day!