I’ve not been feeling well for a while already. Admitting this here on this blog is one major step in the right direction. I have postponed it for months not wanting to deal with it I guess, but here it is. I’m not feeling well. I have been extremely tired because of a lack of sleep. Since December last year my sleeping pattern has been totally out of control ever since I was ill for three weeks. I just realise that is almost a whole year ago…
It has become so bad that the lack of sleep makes me feel desperate at times, and I mean really desperate as in panicking. I can tell it is starting to wear me out as I’m quickly losing weight in my face. I don’t look healthy like I did before, I look ill. It scares me and right now all I can think of is trying ‘again’ to change the pattern and sleep normal regular hours. I had a few attempts already without any success I’m afraid.
But this needs to stop and improve. I wanted to write ‘before it gets really out of hand’, but realised it already is. So I’m planning on an early night, with a book that I would like to finish. Read till about ten and then try do doze off. Let’s see if that will make things better. I really really hope so!
