Wait A Little

Draft from: 2009-10-08 15:31:03 updated and published today

I’ve noticed that a lot of my blog friends or blogs that I read seem to have the same issue for a couple of months now. They all struggle to write posts because of a lack of time and/or inspiration or because they’re caught up in daily life and its issues/problems. I wonder if this is like a subconscious kind of mass reaction… ;)

I too am having problems writing posts because I’m currently in a phase of my life where I’m trying to build something again from scratch which isn’t easy. But at the same time it’s challenging, exciting and going way too slow to my liking. But there’s not much to write about or perhaps there is too much and/or I don’t feel like sharing, I don’t know…

Earlier I was blog hopping and noticed this Thought For Today called ‘Solutions’ We are never without the solutions to our problems. It’s just that sometimes we may have to wait a little. Learn how to remain peaceful and patient. About a week ago I received an email from someone close who complimented me on my perseverance. Both remarks made me think…

I guess I am trying to be patient and learn to remain peaceful while I’m waiting to receive some good news about the start of a new education/job opportunity that I really want to be part of. It took me three months and a few meetings/phone calls to find the right person within the organisation and she promised to keep me updated about the progress.

Another waiting game is ‘China’… I’ve contacted the intermediary again to ask a few questions and was told that they will make a decision later this year and he asked for my sympathy with regard to the Chinese way of the hiring process which is different from our Western way. So what else can I do besides being patient and collect all info I can get?

In the meantime I have been installing eCommerce software to test it, I must note none of it is doing what I would like it to do and I’m saying this from a designer’s, developer’s and user perspective. Some are way too complicated, some are way too slow due to too much Java scripting and database issues, have no easy design options and no good UI.

One of my client’s eCommerce website is also finally live after almost a year of pushing them to push things forward. It almost feels outdated again for some reason and if I could redesign the webshop all over again, I would. I’ve built a landing page which looks much nicer than the actual shop *sssh, don’t tell anyone*. This week they want me to design a voucher.

I’ll be installing new eCommerce software today and see if I can design a nice webshop. I’ve read good reviews about it and I’ve seen some cool shop examples. This is not for clients but for my own project, I have two months to test and finish this in preparation of the bigger plan which is still a work in progress and highly confidential *LOL*.

See? All sorts of stuff going on in the background… But I’ll better keep quiet if what I write starts to sound like an old skipping record that’s being played over and over again, until I’m really into the groove of things… ;)

Today’s Lunacy

At times I wish I could hide under a rock and not having to face whatever it is that I should be facing *honestly I have no freakin clue*. I’m over over over-sensitive to a full moon and whatever it does, it seems to be doing it extremely well. I’m effectively out of balance today and I guess it’s due to the pulling of that moon. I have a love/hate relationship with it since it affects me big time and on the other hand I can’t wait to see a glimpse of it.

I had a restless night and a restless morning, I can’t get the things done that I’m supposed to get done and I wish for quiet and solitude. According to my constellation I’m supposed to be able to see things clearly but even trying to see through the fog that seems to cover my thoughts, I feel I can’t see anything at all and I probably don’t make much sense today either since what I’m writing sounds like nothing but riddles…

If this influence comes during a period that is otherwise difficult, it guarantees that for the moment at least you will be able to cope with your situation, no matter how difficult it becomes. Intellectual or physical work that requires perseverance and great attention to detail is favored by this influence. Also, this influence will help you get to know yourself better.

The close attention to detail that characterizes your way of seeing now will help you see yourself and your own reactions very clearly.

Sure…

It just makes me grin in a rather sarcastic way. I think I should try to stay away from certain things, like I said earlier, I crave solitude and quiet. Reorganise my thoughts and be creative, perhaps I should try working on some digital artwork today since to me that’s the only way to organise my thoughts and let go of the restless feeling without getting utterly impatient with the world around me and have a go at it just because I can.

And instead of that rock I should be where I need to be and not trying to run away from him because I might react weird for no particular reason. I know he’ll understand and has the ability to make it all go, then why don’t I feel ready, why am I fighting this? I know exactly what is going on, it’s that big fat glowing celestial orb, out there in the night, that keeps me from working and makes me behave rather erratically. Forgive me for being such a lunatic…

© K Crawford My Lunacy… December will have the largest full moon of this year