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Where to start?

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I guess… where I left off…

Much has changed since and much still continues to change. I’ve had a one-year contract offered after I’ve had a second interview and after I had to successfully complete an extremely difficult (IQ) test. But then the financial crisis hit this country again and I had to wait for a year until I got hired. I now have an indefinite contract and I’ve been with this company for over a year already. I have different roles for different projects at different companies. My last project started at the beginning of this year and will finish by the end of this month. They might extend the project so I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

I’ve been doing serious soul searching for a long time and found out that whenever I focus on something that I really want, I will get it. Life has been another rough ride in the meantime but I guess everyone has their ups and downs. I’m living in the city again that I once had left to move countries. I feel I have a love-hate relationship with it since I can’t get used to the crowded streets, the noise, the aggression and the egocentric attitude of most. At times I do not feel at home here at all but I guess that has to do with the fact that I had moved countries. I feel I don’t belong here and it’s a restless feeling.

Life made a 360 for me and I guess that had all to do with being focused on getting things back, start allover again from scratch and write a new chapter in a new book. But some chapters probably will remain the same even in a new book… I’ve received a letter a few days ago from someone dear to me, someone who has been there for me whenever I needed to talk to her. Someone who helped me when I had worries or when I couldn’t see a silver lining. The letter said she had been ill for two months, ill from chemotherapy since she had been treated for malignant bone cancer.

It came as a total shock to me and I guess I still am in shock in a way. I’m going to write a letter because I haven’t spoken with her in a year. I was too preoccupied (…) She doesn’t want people to call which I can understand. So writing(!) is the best I can do for now. I just didn’t find the right paper yet because I want it to be something special. Stuff like that makes you think and I mean really think… So that’s probably why I felt the need to write a first post again in years. I’ve had the urge for a while already but I kept postponing it. Silly -I know- but each time I tried, something got in the way and I had to set other priorities.

I really really needed the break and this is hopefully the start of that new chapter. More to come soon…

Wait A Little

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Draft from: 2009-10-08 15:31:03 updated and published today

I’ve noticed that a lot of my blog friends or blogs that I read seem to have the same issue for a couple of months now. They all struggle to write posts because of a lack of time and/or inspiration or because they’re caught up in daily life and its issues/problems. I wonder if this is like a subconscious kind of mass reaction… ;)

I too am having problems writing posts because I’m currently in a phase of my life where I’m trying to build something again from scratch which isn’t easy. But at the same time it’s challenging, exciting and going way too slow to my liking. But there’s not much to write about or perhaps there is too much and/or I don’t feel like sharing, I don’t know…

Earlier I was blog hopping and noticed this Thought For Today called ‘Solutions’ We are never without the solutions to our problems. It’s just that sometimes we may have to wait a little. Learn how to remain peaceful and patient. About a week ago I received an email from someone close who complimented me on my perseverance. Both remarks made me think…

I guess I am trying to be patient and learn to remain peaceful while I’m waiting to receive some good news about the start of a new education/job opportunity that I really want to be part of. It took me three months and a few meetings/phone calls to find the right person within the organisation and she promised to keep me updated about the progress.

Another waiting game is ‘China’… I’ve contacted the intermediary again to ask a few questions and was told that they will make a decision later this year and he asked for my sympathy with regard to the Chinese way of the hiring process which is different from our Western way. So what else can I do besides being patient and collect all info I can get?

In the meantime I have been installing eCommerce software to test it, I must note none of it is doing what I would like it to do and I’m saying this from a designer’s, developer’s and user perspective. Some are way too complicated, some are way too slow due to too much Java scripting and database issues, have no easy design options and no good UI.

One of my client’s eCommerce website is also finally live after almost a year of pushing them to push things forward. It almost feels outdated again for some reason and if I could redesign the webshop all over again, I would. I’ve built a landing page which looks much nicer than the actual shop *sssh, don’t tell anyone*. This week they want me to design a voucher.

I’ll be installing new eCommerce software today and see if I can design a nice webshop. I’ve read good reviews about it and I’ve seen some cool shop examples. This is not for clients but for my own project, I have two months to test and finish this in preparation of the bigger plan which is still a work in progress and highly confidential *LOL*.

See? All sorts of stuff going on in the background… But I’ll better keep quiet if what I write starts to sound like an old skipping record that’s being played over and over again, until I’m really into the groove of things… ;)