Tense Week

I’m tense and it ain’t fun, I’m tense because of past and present issues because of personal and professional issues, because words are left unspoken and if I do speak out I’m not understood. I’m tense because there is an issue that I’m avoiding while I should discuss it by creating the opportunity. I’m tense because others always seem to pull at me whenever I’m in need of solitude, they’re like moths drawn to a flame when all I want is quiet and peace of mind. I’m too tense and what is on the inside starts to show on the outside.

I’m being warned again that I’m handling things the wrong way, that I should act on it and do something about it or it only gets worse, so I can’t ignore no longer. My body is extremely good at forcing me to stop and listen to myself. It started out as headache last week, this week it nearly turned into a migraine. For the last two days my neck and arm becomes all stiff even if I stretch every 10 minutes. I can actually feel the muscles tighten up and no matter how often or how long I stretch, within the hour I’m in pain. Not just any pain, I wish it was…

So I’m gonna listen to my system and reboot: I’m done working today, work can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna reply to any more emails, it can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna answer any phone calls, I’m gonna spend time on fun things like my own projects and enjoying the sun that’s greeting me through the window. ScĀ£@%w it… I’m always looking after others and who’s looking after me? It can wait… I’ll be soaking in a hot bath because my neck and arm are screaming for heat therapy and relaxation, I could use a good massage too…

Enough is enough right? It’s about time I say no to people… no not today, today I take time for me, maybe tomorrow, but most likely on Monday. Have a wonderful weekend!

© Zesty Gal, I’m off relaxing!

Spring Arrived?

While I read about the winter in the Lowlands which has been cold and below zero at some point, the weather over here has been really odd this winter… I was sitting in the lounge watching a show on TV last week. I had the window open because it was sunny and not cold at all while I heard a familiar sound all of a sudden. It was the sound of screeching hungry baby sparrows [of the common house sparrow]. I had to listen again because I couldn’t believe what I heard since it was still January and way to early for baby birds. But I wasn’t fooling myself; I kept hearing it every five minutes…

In the UK the drainage pipes are placed on the outside wall of the old Victorian houses and when I look out the kitchen window I can see one in the opposite corner of the neighbour’s house. Last year while I was doing the washing-up in the kitchen I noticed something flying about from the corner of my eye. Two sparrows were busy flying back and forth from the garden to the nest that they had built right behind the main drainage pipe in that particular corner. Both were taking turns feeding their screeching babies for weeks and it was fun watching them doing their thing. But that must have been in April or May and definitely not in January.

Then last Saturday I had to go out and collect something at the pharmacy on the high street and while I walked down there I noticed some beautiful bright yellow daffodils that were planted near a tree in my street. The mild conditions of this winter definitely must have confused plants and birds. I guess I’m not the only one who noticed since two days ago it was actually mentioned on the BBC news later that evening. Climate change is a big issue here in the UK and a regular topic on TV shows or the news. It doesn’t really surprise me since I’ve seen the effect with my own eyes.

Let’s hope there won’t be a spell of cold weather in the next few weeks, it would be awful if those tiny baby sparrows won’t survive…

© Rex