Step One And A Half

I was disappointed yesterday and slightly down in a way because I had high expectations about this study and its arrangements and I feel that the responsible organisation hasn’t been clear about things at all. Yesterday some facts were revealed that -to me- made it all look less bright and wonderful and I ended up in deep thinkers mode. There are only four places available while they left the impression that there would be at least 10 to 15…

There were about 28 people in the room and about three decided not to go for it after we were given a presentation: do the maths… One fact was about wages which will be extremely low during the study which will be spread over three years. Once you’ve passed your exams your pay will be slightly higher. Another fact that surfaced was the level of education which is lower than I was told so I’d need to add three more years of study.

Ever since I came home yesterday I had been thinking about what I should do and I couldn’t make up my mind. I really needed to talk to someone close today and exchange thoughts, so I rang C. at the academy. I knew he would be able to answer some of my questions that were causing doubts. By the time we hung up -an hour plus later- I was feeling positive again because of his advice and enthusiasm and full of energy to start the process.

I’ll have to write a motivational letter and might have to retake the competence test. If I’ll go through to the second round I’ll have to have a chat with the employer and take a study assessment test. It all seems pretty strict so it’s gonna be interesting to see what will happen these next couple of weeks. I’m gonna be busy… Today I also received a request from a client to design an ad to send to wholesalers and to update the website for xMas.

While I was cleaning out one of my external hard discs I ran into a smaller version of the image below. I’d forgotten about it, about taking it but it put a smile on my face and because of that I’ve decided to post the bigger version. I miss my little friend…

I miss him…

Chaotic Time

I’m gonna be busy this week so no post probably [but you never know]… Had a busy Friday yesterday: visit to the hospital and meeting up for freelance work at Camden. I’ll be working on some new stuff for the next couple of days so I won’t be online much. There’s some cool design projects in the pipeline and I also have to finish a WordPress template for Farfallina still. I was called Friday afternoon about another offer for a senior web designer’s role so will have to sort that out on Monday and by the end of the week I will be in the Lowlands for a rapid visit to collect my stuff from storage there and move it to the UK. Another step that needs to be taken which will probably cause some emotional stir to me.

I’ll be going through the Channel tunnel which has been a while… I think last time I used it was in 2002. Most of my friends think I’m crazy for doing this but I don’t really have a problem with it to be honest. Yes it’s freaky but so is an airplane in my humble opinion. And the boat is really not an option to me since 2004, when I ended up being stuck on it for 6 hours in a serious gale that was so bad it ripped out the back/emergency doors. Almost everyone on the boat was sick, even if you had sea legs, the sight and smell of people puking was enough to cause a similar reaction. On top of that I was ‘launched’ by the force of a wave, from one wall to the opposite one: almost ended up breaking my shoulder crashing into the wall. Never again…

I guess I will be completely knackered by the time I’m back in the UK again, it will be three days of moving basically without any help, so I could use some luck and some good vibes. I lost my mouse yesterday [the light grey one] he passed away: he was old, extremely old for a mouse, 2.5 years at least, but that doesn’t make it easier… He had a good life and I will miss him. So let me be sad for a few days, he deserves it! So long my friend, thank you for the company! Everything seems to slowly vanish around me, I hope it means that the universe makes room for something new. It is going to be a chaotic time I’m afraid…

I feel lonely lately, very lonely and I can’t seem to shake off this feeling.

[please check back after Monday the 21st]