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Shifting Moods

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This is written during a brief hiatus from blogging, when I had no internet connection for three weeks

My moods are shifting hourly today, I’m okay most of the time but perhaps that’s because I have almost no privacy and can’t really deal with the roller coaster of emotions I’m currently going through. When I’m on my own I feel so uprooted, sad and confused, wishing I don’t have to live out of boxes feeling like I’m constantly on the move.

The slow bureaucracy system is not helping much either, it takes two weeks to send my info from one city to another. I wonder if they walk the 40 km distance to get it there… After the two weeks wait I’ll have to apply for a ‘DigiD number’ online which was introduced when I left so I never applied for it at the time since I didn’t expect to ever use it.

It takes another week to get the ‘DigiD number’ and then I can finally register with all other organisations to get the ball rolling. I’ve received a letter yesterday that I’m supposed to have internet connection again next Tuesday which is pretty quick. Let’s hope I’ll receive the modem on time so I can start installing and testing the LAN/WAN.

Once the connection is up and running the madness will start again, I have clients waiting for me to contact them. It’s okay, I can’t sit around and ‘do nothing’, I need to be busy to stay sane but on the other hand I really wish to be by myself for a while. Perhaps I’ll stay ‘invisible’, I need some time for me coz I don’t really feel like talking to anyone.

Pay phones and Letters

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This is written during a brief hiatus from blogging, when I had no internet connection for three weeks

I need to make a few private phone calls and I’m looking for a pay phone. What the hell happened to pay phones? I’m not going into all the details but I just need to make a private call without someone nosy trying to overhear a conversation with a person he/she banned from his/her life for a ridiculous reason, ever since my dad past away. I’m surprised that these days you’re basically forced to have a mobile, what if I don’t want one?

Same goes for internet, I’ve applied for a connection because when I tried to arrange things from London I was told I couldn’t until I was registered and each registration should be done online… What if I’m nearly 80 and I don’t understand a thing about computers? Which is extremely unlikely -the bit about computers that is- because computers *read Apple Macs*, internet and everything related is my juice but you’ll get the point, don’t you?

I really would like to make that phone call but I have no clue where to go… How come I feel so utterly lost again, having no answers to all my questions and not knowing where to go or who to turn to to find these answers? Thankfully, I received a letter on Tuesday from my provider. Only three more weeks to go until I’m connected again but hopefully with a bit of luck I’ll receive the package next week so I can install the network.

Along with the news from the provider, I received a really sweet letter all the way from Malta with a beautiful symbolic gift from my friend Wen. I’m trying to keep my chin up and endure all the madness, sadness and chaos but I really had a tough TOUGH TOUGH week. So when the letter came in it changed my mood completely and lifted my spirit.