Tense Week

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I’m tense and it ain’t fun, I’m tense because of past and present issues because of personal and professional issues, because words are left unspoken and if I do speak out I’m not understood. I’m tense because there is an issue that I’m avoiding while I should discuss it by creating the opportunity. I’m tense because others always seem to pull at me whenever I’m in need of solitude, they’re like moths drawn to a flame when all I want is quiet and peace of mind. I’m too tense and what is on the inside starts to show on the outside.

I’m being warned again that I’m handling things the wrong way, that I should act on it and do something about it or it only gets worse, so I can’t ignore no longer. My body is extremely good at forcing me to stop and listen to myself. It started out as headache last week, this week it nearly turned into a migraine. For the last two days my neck and arm becomes all stiff even if I stretch every 10 minutes. I can actually feel the muscles tighten up and no matter how often or how long I stretch, within the hour I’m in pain. Not just any pain, I wish it was…

So I’m gonna listen to my system and reboot: I’m done working today, work can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna reply to any more emails, it can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna answer any phone calls, I’m gonna spend time on fun things like my own projects and enjoying the sun that’s greeting me through the window. Sc£@%w it… I’m always looking after others and who’s looking after me? It can wait… I’ll be soaking in a hot bath because my neck and arm are screaming for heat therapy and relaxation, I could use a good massage too…

Enough is enough right? It’s about time I say no to people… no not today, today I take time for me, maybe tomorrow, but most likely on Monday. Have a wonderful weekend!

© Zesty Gal, I’m off relaxing!

Today’s Lunacy

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At times I wish I could hide under a rock and not having to face whatever it is that I should be facing *honestly I have no freakin clue*. I’m over over over-sensitive to a full moon and whatever it does, it seems to be doing it extremely well. I’m effectively out of balance today and I guess it’s due to the pulling of that moon. I have a love/hate relationship with it since it affects me big time and on the other hand I can’t wait to see a glimpse of it.

I had a restless night and a restless morning, I can’t get the things done that I’m supposed to get done and I wish for quiet and solitude. According to my constellation I’m supposed to be able to see things clearly but even trying to see through the fog that seems to cover my thoughts, I feel I can’t see anything at all and I probably don’t make much sense today either since what I’m writing sounds like nothing but riddles…

If this influence comes during a period that is otherwise difficult, it guarantees that for the moment at least you will be able to cope with your situation, no matter how difficult it becomes. Intellectual or physical work that requires perseverance and great attention to detail is favored by this influence. Also, this influence will help you get to know yourself better.

The close attention to detail that characterizes your way of seeing now will help you see yourself and your own reactions very clearly.

Sure…

It just makes me grin in a rather sarcastic way. I think I should try to stay away from certain things, like I said earlier, I crave solitude and quiet. Reorganise my thoughts and be creative, perhaps I should try working on some digital artwork today since to me that’s the only way to organise my thoughts and let go of the restless feeling without getting utterly impatient with the world around me and have a go at it just because I can.

And instead of that rock I should be where I need to be and not trying to run away from him because I might react weird for no particular reason. I know he’ll understand and has the ability to make it all go, then why don’t I feel ready, why am I fighting this? I know exactly what is going on, it’s that big fat glowing celestial orb, out there in the night, that keeps me from working and makes me behave rather erratically. Forgive me for being such a lunatic…

© K Crawford My Lunacy… December will have the largest full moon of this year