Onwards and Upwards

I’ve been working a lot lately on the designs of my jewellery and find that the most tedious details give me the best results. I love the fact that it requires quite a lot of research because I’m learning throughout the process and discover new techniques and ways to solve issues. Also the treasure hunt for certain materials is an amazing way to find new basics or special items. I mostly work with leather, pearls, aluminium, gem stones and shapes or stuff that I find in nature.

I’ve bought really cool tiny mechanical clock parts which I’ve used in my latest designs along with a technique called wire wrapping. It looks cool and is a great technique to combine with rough materials and/or nonsymmetrical shapes like shells which I use a lot. Although it can be quite compelling at times, it is still a very intensive technique to work with and not as easy as it looks nor as complicated as chain mail either. As I have only started I’m sure I’ll learn soon enough.

Working on my designs puts me in zen mode and after a couple of hours -no matter how tedious things become- I find myself being either totally relaxed, singing or sighing. Not a sigh of frustration though, the opposite: a total contentedness kind of sigh. One that reoccurs regularly within a certain time span. Also the reactions I get from people around me are very rewarding, they seem to be really enthusiastic when I show them my stuff and encourage me to sell them at a store.

Which is something I’ll keep in mind for the future, for now it is ok to just explore all the different kinds of techniques and go treasure hunting for new and cool small items that I can use for my designs.

Bogged Down

I seriously need to get stuff out of my system soon. This month is dragging me down knowing what is waiting ahead of me. All sorts of unfinished business. My contract with the government ends so I need to look for new projects. I have so much admin stuff that has built up over the last couple of weeks which needs sorting. Plus there’s some things I need to think about…

I mean really think about. I’m currently not in a happy place and trying hard to make the best of it but I’m so in need of some time off so I can work on my jewellery project. I ordered some things which came in last week but I have not had a chance to use it. Working on the jewellery is like meditation to me. And I’ve got soulsearching to do and think about forgiving someone.

I’m not sure if I can deal with this tho. I’m feeling kind of empty at the moment. Being creative and in meditational mode might help finding myself again. Although I’ve noticed that when I’m sad I can’t create stuff. I need to be happy in order to make beautiful things or come up with great ideas. I need to be inspired. Right now I’m lacking the energy because of this confrontation.

I wrote a letter to get things off my chest. I’ve asked to let me be for a while until damage is healed again and if it doesn’t heal than I’m going to draw a line. I’m getting things to change around here. I’m going to change myself and my perception. It’s once again time to do so but somehow I get bogged down by circumstances. I can’t change those but I can change myself!

Focus is all that is needed. I’m gonna do this.