It’s typical how some only seem to know you when they want something from you and how obsessively persistent they can be for as long as it takes to get it. The moment it’s provided it becomes silent again and no serious efforts are made to equalise the imbalance caused by their actions. I’ve tried to equalise -although I didn’t have to- and I can’t be bothered anymore.
A friend said to me: ‘you shouldn’t try to carry the burden of others’ misdeeds, rudeness, insensitivity’ and he is right, as usual. I really shouldn’t. I seem to have different standards than some (read: non-superficial) when it comes to courtesy and principles. Instead of wasting it on vultures who don’t appreciate values I should share it with those who do…
Others told me to be open, await a result or try again, but I feel I tried enough. If it is such hard work -while it shouldn’t be- than I don’t see the point trying to hang on to something that obviously to me has a different meaning than to the other party. The expectations of life depend upon diligence; the mechanic that would perfect his work must first sharpen his tools.
So I’m gonna sharpen my tools, take my wise friend’s advice and focus on ‘me’. I’m blessed to have someone who shares the same principles, who inspires me and shows me different perspectives when I need to be reminded of how to put myself first…
Speaking of which… I have to get ready for a trip to the Lowlands and a forthcoming interview. I need to pack and I have absolutely no idea what to wear since it’s like 10 degrees warmer in Amsterdam than it is here…
Equalise imbalance…
The weather is nice and the rays beam down on you today.
Waiting to hear about the celebration at the VP later on
Your friend’s advice is perfect. Ignore those people who bother you with their insensitivity and rudeness is a very good advice. Some people were just not taught manners and some other people are just selfish. They only look for you when they need you and not to share life as such. I don’t have time for those people anymore.
Good luck with the packing and the interview! I am sure you’ll do all right.
It was such a beautiful day! Amazing three days actually
I have lots to tell you! and show as well *hehe* VP was so nice as well, had to wait for Dina for an hour but I was so totally enjoying myself sitting in the sun at a terrace… relaxing and being happy about all the good news… I never expected all these wonderful opportunities.
The candle worked like a charm, can’t you tell?
Thank you SO much :-*
You are always right
… Certain behaviour is just disappointing I guess but to be honest, after having three amazing days I really can’t be bothered to even give it more thought 
You’re right: I don’t have time for this anymore either!
Packing was bad, I changed my mind eight times but I made the right decision in the end!
Interview went extremely well and I’m waiting for more good news. What you said a while ago about the Universe… it is still amazing what is happening at the moment. I can’t say much yet but I will soon 