I told myself not to post because some things are better left unsaid but since some are asking I will write five sentences. Due to circumstances this birthday wasn’t what I was hoping for at all. There has only been one other moment in my life so far where I felt as lonely as I did this day. I think I had a lesson to learn…
I’ll reply to your emails soon, just because it wasn’t what I was hoping for doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate you.

Alone in zazen

In the awakened eye
Mountains and rivers
Completely disappear.
The eye of delusion
Gazes upon
Deep fog and clouds.
Alone in my zazen
I forget the days
As they pass.
The wisteria has grown
Thick over the eaves
Of my hut.

~Muso (1275-1351)