I Forgive You

‘Reject your sense of injury, and the injury itself disappears.’

~Marcus Aurelius

If you have been wronged, you can choose:

• to be humble and forgive

or

• to be bitter and vengeful

I refuse to become bitter, I’ve seen what it does to people from a very close perspective -a maternal one- ever since I was a child so I learned my lesson at a young age. I had to literally take distance to be able to forgive after all those years and learn to love and communicate again with her. It’s not easy but we’re getting there slowly but surely…

These days when I see others breaking promises, betray my confidence, tell me lies, my first natural reaction is to be angry at the person. I made a decision some time ago to allow myself to be angry for a few and then to forgive so I’d be able to move on and not let it fester… But at times things get cloudy, thanks my friend for reminding me to be me and just ‘be’!

So today I turn to you and say:

Whatever has been done, although I don’t understand your reason(s), I don’t wish to carry the negativity that came with it as a result and I won’t dwell while I could use this energy in a much better way. You don’t know any better, it wasn’t personal, you were just playing your part responding to the signals I was giving out and for that I forgive you… and myself.

No commenting on this post, instead I’d ask you to use those minutes to contemplate…

Sweet Mailman

The mailman has been good to me today; all these wonderful parcels!!!
First I received a parcel at the door from Christiaan with a really really cool gadget in it, thank you again Christiaan!!! It’s the coolest webcam ever!! Did I ever mention Christiaan’s weak spot for Gaffer Duck tape? All I’ll say for now is that the package was very well wrapped! emoticons/biggrin.gif I didn’t try it yet but will soon, I will have to make sure not to make the same mistake again and crash my computer, I know how to seriously crash it now… So better be prepared this time!
Then I received my Barclays bank card, so I can finally pay in stores over here, no more trouble with my other cards. All I need to do now is transfer Euros into my UK account. Another problem solved! and it feels good! The last thing I received was some bedding for the mice that I can’t find anywhere except online. We’ve tried so many pet shops but none had it so in the end I decided to order it online. Both 5 liter bags came in in the afternoon. Another problem solved. It’s so nice to receive fun stuff thru the mail, I reckon receiving the parcel from the Lowlands was the nicest to receive. Not just because of who sent it or what was in there but also because it’s something from ‘home’…. I know that must sound pathetic, but I do appreciate receiving something from ‘home’.
So I had quite a good day until I started to vomit out of the blue. I feel ill/feverish and not too well so I will wait until A. is here, have some dinner and then I’m off to bed!
[wrote this after dinner:]
I’ve received a mail from the designer at the Times his name is A., he would like to meet up and talk shop so I will reply to his mail tomorrow. I really need to sleep now!