Tag Archives: Capricorn

Granted Aspiration

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The Gods must have been pleased or something: yesterday, right after I posted about my frustration with Barclays all the pieces seemed to come together all of a sudden. All problems got solved one after the other and best of all, even the Barclays problem was finally solved. I thought it wasn’t real… yesterday wasn’t real, I must have been dreaming *pinch me!*

I’ve sent out an email Sunday evening, the first job application I sent to NL, which I found online. Closing date was ‘before May 4′: Monday morning basically. I was late and probably too late if you’d calculate in office hours but I didn’t want to let this opportunity pass so I explained why I was that late and sent it off 22.45 UK time (15 minutes before midnight NL time).

Tuesday I received a request for a digital portfolio. I worked all night and stayed up till 07.00 Wednesday morning, slept for four hours and got up again to finish a new designed, improved and updated-with-all-the-recent-stuff-I’ve-been-doing digital portfolio. I sent it off in the afternoon 14.00 NL time. That evening I had an appointment with a client to discuss new projects.

Yesterday morning I received a call from the company in Amsterdam about an interview. They explained the procedure and asked if I happened to be in NL within the next few weeks. I wasn’t but I wouldn’t mind booking a flight if I had to. Later that day they called again after meeting up to discuss this. They really wanted to see me so I booked flights ten minutes later…

Right after I received the long-awaited phone call from the local business banking manager who was extremely apologetic telling me that what happened should never have happened. They’ll reimburse all charges and she’d personally make sure the account is closed. A little voice in my head tells me that she must have been afraid to get it in the neck from her boss *hehe*.

Like I said in my other posts something is going on in the Universe… everything seems to go so amazingly smooth lately and it all turns out so incredibly positive and inspirational for me that it scares the hell out of me. Why? Coz it’s going too smooth *LOL* And this Capricorn doesn’t trust smooth transitions…which doesn’t necessarily mean that she can’t get used to it ;)

Flights are booked, days are planned and a place to stay is arranged so while I’ll be going to have an interview I’ll also be treating myself to a mini vacation while I can. I so deserve it.

Have a great weekend!

Cycle Of Changes

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There will be a lot of change over the next two months and that’s why I have been quiet: I feel the need to think. I’ve been at a crossroad and this time I’ve chosen to turn right instead of full speed ahead. I have had many thoughts spread out on the floor in front of me and they all needed their place in their own tiny drawer, carefully put away after contemplation.

I’ve made a decision some time ago and I’ve come to terms with it realising that change is something that should be embraced and celebrated no matter how scary. As the perfectionist Goat I tend to label and reflect certain things as disappointments or even failure but while I was going through each and every thought in a drawer, I realised there is no such thing.

I’ve tried and I’ve succeeded in many ways, the outcome was not what I expected it to be so yes disappointment is inevitable but I should focus on what I’ve accomplished not on pointless expectations. I’ve accomplished a lot and others had to and have reminded me of that many many times when I was too stubborn and not ready to admit or see.

I’m putting things behind me and I’m moving on, the thoughts are in their drawers, secure and locked away, neatly organised as they should be. And while I was in the middle of this process, another one started months ago already. I’ve been drawing and making notes in my Moleskine, keeping an eye on the list of things-to-do, in order to reach the new exciting goal I set myself.

It’s something I will be working on for the next couple of years, a dream and reality soon. Part of it is already taking shape whilst designing for a client, important contacts have been made in the UK, another part is taking shape in my head and the main part will evolve over time. Those who know about my plans are extremely enthusiastic, guess my own enthusiasm rubs off…

Ever since I made up my mind, things seem to find me without having to make an effort. It’s almost cynical how I’ve tried for nearly three years to make something work; putting all my time into it and now that I’ve made a decision to make a fresh start again and focus on that, all struggles seem to disappear and are replaced by new opportunities and challenges.

It all feels extremely good though, scary yes… but good. So while I’m contemplating some thoughts still, I’m celebrating others and embracing the idea of change, a clean slate, a fresh start, back to the source. I’m in sync with the cycle of nature’s own dynamics of death and rebirth, winter and spring… I hope I can keep this going for a while, it’s so rewarding!

Drawers of my mind