Another Recovery

I’ve been to the hospital yesterday. It was something that needed to be done and that I have been postponing for almost 8 months, ever since my GP gave me the referral. I’ve been postponing it because the complaints I have are the same as the ones I had whilst living in the UK. Back then it was the start of an excessive period of turmoil which caused nothing but grief, both mentally and physically. I don’t have happy memories of that time in my life thus I do not wish to see it repeated again.

But avoiding a situation is not going to make it disappear all of a sudden. I realise that I shouldn’t ignore my health and instead face my fear. So two weeks ago I finally rang the hospital and made an appointment that was scheduled yesterday. I went to the hospital which is within walking distance (20 min walk) and had a chat with the assistant, she explained the procedure to me. But once on the lithotomy operating table the specialist doctor changed his mind about the treatment because of certain complications.

I ended up having local anaesthesia (four injections) and four biopsies were taken. I had severe contractions caused by what they call the Ferguson reflex. Next week I’ll receive a phone call about the results and see if I need more surgery. If that is the case I will have to recover for another three weeks, whilst I’m not allowed to do heavy lifting, climb stairs etc. I’m trying to take one day at a time and not worry about what is going to be next. Today I’ll focus on getting better, ignore the pain and enjoy a beautiful spring day.

True Friends

Today I’ve send an email to my friends, telling them about my plans and what steps I’ll take to get there within the next six months. Sending out the email was a first step and the reactions are heart-warming so far. It tells me that I’m on the right path, it tells me that my true friends are my true friends because they understand my reasons and send me support emails. I’m still thinking about their reactions. I guess they must have noticed something even without me telling them how I feel about certain things.

It lifted up my spirit and I guess I should continue chasing that feeling and keep at it. I have no idea what will evolve over time but I trust my gut, my drive and my perseverance to show me when the time is right. I’m somewhat emotional about the response, their words meant so much to me. I’ll be seeing some of them in the next couple of weeks. I’m sure discussing this is going to add even more meaning. I know they’ll help me stay focused on what needs to be done. And once again I need patience, lots of it.

But the funny thing is, I know I will get where I want to be because there are people out there who believe in me, who are impressed by my decision of taking the risk to give up everything and start another new chapter in my life. It almost feels I took them for granted somehow, their opinions, the friendship that we share. They don’t tell me what I need to hear, they tell me their truth and it happens to be mine as well. I’m so grateful and blessed for having them in my life… For being who they are.

Change has already started, it feels scary but good! :)