One hour before I had to leave for an interview this afternoon I had a conversation with a Mensendieck therapist* about my doubts…
*Mensendieck is a paramedical system of correct body mechanics, correct muscle function, and correct posture based on sound fundamental research developed by Dr. Bess Mensendieck and has widespread use in Europe, specifically Denmark, Sweden, Norway and the Netherlands.
She told me to just be honest and to tell them what my reasons were for having those doubts. I was nervous not because of the interview but because I would have to go there with mixed feelings while I should be overenthusiastic, convincing and showing my total commitment and a drive to attain the goal: getting this job.
I had the interview, I was honest and I told them about my doubts halfway through. I can’t fool these people: they’re psychiatrists… professionals… They have the ability to x-ray your thoughts and your soul and make you say things that you think were safely put away in the back of your head, unreachable and hidden to others… NOT.
What was supposed to be a quick and short interview became a fifty minutes one and near the end I said to them that it might be best if they would offer someone else this opportunity instead of me. No, I didn’t lose my mind… Something weird happened during the interview while they were carefully analysing my reactions and words.
At some point they offered me a better position, which included a creative job and a higher education than the one I had the interview for. I could use my creativity with the job they had on offer while the original one didn’t involve creativity at all -which I knew- but it didn’t matter until the moment they mentioned another position and asked me what I’d prefer…
I left with this odd feeling… not sure what to feel. I have to call Mr. L. (the main interviewer) next week and make an appointment with him to discuss the possibilities, it will take about an hour. I would be working three days a week and study for a bachelor degree on the fourth day for four years. They will pay for my study/books while I’d work for their organisation…
So I guess I did what was right, I listened to my gut feeling and was honest with them… a win-win situation. I have till September to commit to my design work and use the available network to get assignments in while I’ve something good to look forward to. I think it all is going to work out just fine as long as I trust that gut feeling. Today is proof of that!
When I left they shook my hand and thanked me for my honesty. I think that was the best compliment I had in a while…
sounds like it went really well! Honesty is always the best policy
as you well said, it looks like the interview was a win-win 
Good luck so that you will get the most suitable position 
and the one that your heart desires.
Thanks Wen!
The position is already there I just have to apply for it again and hopefully the company will then invest money in me and the study so I can start learning for a bachelor degree in September. Then once I’ll start the study I will work for this organisation at the same time: 3 days job and one day study… SO looking forward to this! It’s a much better option than the one I applied for Wednesday!
That sounds amazing! Who would have thought that honesty really IS the best policy? That’s inspiring, I have to say! And congratulations
Thanks Bitter Chocolate
I think it’s always the best policy: being honest with yourself and others! After all, you create your own destiny
So honesty will always pay off in the long run, people will remember you and if they are intelligent people, they will value your principles 
I know people like that are rare these days, but they are out there! So yes: be inspired! I hope they will cross your path and acknowledge your qualities!