I have an interview tomorrow and I have no clue what to wear… I have been repeating and answering possible questions over and over again in my head but as usual I’ve stopped doing this because it is no point to try to control or prepare this in advance. I’m not nervous at all, because I always feel that if things are meant to be it’s meant to be. If this job (including three years of education) is meant for me than it’s meant for me and it will happen.

I’ve received a phone call yesterday about the interview and to be honest I was surprised that I even made it through to the second round since the competition is fierce. I only get 30 minutes to convince them of my skills and dedication to make this work for the next three years. But I’m having major doubts because it would mean a proper career change, while I’m still slowly but surely putting down my roots (client-wise) where I’m currently living…

Yesterday I was given a personal phone number of the manager of the City Auditorium who wanted me to contact her: she has such a huge network and wanted to recommend me to potential clients or even help me find a perm/temp design job. It makes me think whether I tried hard enough since the move. I’d have to say I probably didn’t because I never really made up my mind not knowing what direction to go until I’d taken the competency test.

When I was going through the results with the coach I was told to either continue what I’m doing but actually commit myself instead of doing stuff half-arsed. Committing means doing what I’ve done in the UK: properly register the company with the chamber of commerce. But most of all getting out there to get assignments in because it won’t just happen: networking is a huge part of that so I’m very pleased with this person’s phone number! It’s a start…

So… not knowing what to wear for this interview is probably representing an underlying issue that I need to address. I wanted this interview so badly when things were still looking bright last summer but when I heard about the terms and conditions it all started to look a bit gloomy. I wish I would be shown which way to turn: some divine sign from the Universe or am I too blind to see and missing something? I’m so good at annoying myself!

They dangle the carrot but it all comes down to how hungry you really are, if you get my drift…

© Caroline Young