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Karma Only Has Nine Lives

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Something I wrote a while ago on another part of the interwebs, I will delete it there but wanted to keep it here as a reminder. It was written on: 24 February 2011 at 17:23

Life might throw another curveball at you when you least expect it. I’ve become a good catcher over time and my hand signalling has immensely improved since I took control that way. Running away will only get you so far -read: nowhere-, it’s just a matter of time before things will catch up on you. Best to face the unexpected instead, see what lesson you can learn from it and take responsibility for your actions in life.

Things happen for a reason and many times I’ve chosen not to listen to that inner voice that was screaming at me. The harder it screamed the harder I tried to ignore it. Until one day it became silent and I experienced one of those epiphany moments, realising something was wrong. From then on I decided to change my ways and no longer ignore each and every omen that would come to me, good or ‘bad’…

I’ve had many since: all small gifts from the universe. Like a constellation of bright stars that I stare at at night, my personal map pointing out to me where I should go next. It’s in the moment, here and now. It’s the message hidden in those who cross my path and enter my life and those who will leave again. When you let go of negative people and dissemblers, situations, things, then others will appear: the positive kind.

The kind that you wish to embrace, the kind that gives you all the energy you’ll need to grow and shine. The genuine kind. FB is one of these things that is taking energy and hardly returning any. It is the sad result of a society that needs the ego stroking heroin because they’ve forgotten how to listen to their inner voice. Some of my friends have come to the same conclusion and decided to stay away from FB.

I’ve made that decision too -a while ago actually- and will only post every now and then or check on people to see how they’re doing. I need my energy to make my dream come true, I owe that to myself. Things happen for a reason (e.g. bursitis I dealt with). It only means that I should channel my energy more effectively and that something bigger, better and more fulfilling is waiting for me. The universal law of cause and effect.

Open star cluster Pismis 24

The small open star cluster Pismis 24 lies in the core of the NGC 6357 nebula in Scorpius, about 8,000 light-years away from Earth. ©Nasa, Instituto de Astrofísica de Andalucía, Spain

Sell Me Short

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It’s kind of sad when someone becomes so resentful and bitter that it will reflect badly on their future and its posibilities. I could see them end like that. I should’ve known better since I grew up with a person with an attitude like this and now I see another -actually three- become the exact same copy of emotionally draining negativism.

Tho it’s certainly not my responsibility, I do feel sorry for them, for not being able to take the good part from an experience, contemplate the whole, and move on without grudges. Over the years I’ve become tired of, and immune to hearing the constant whinging. Funnily enough, the one person I’d already given up on, drastically changed.

It’s because I’d changed my attitude towards her and showed her the consequences of verbally attacking someone. I would tell her exactly what I would do: because I refuse to listen to the constant nagging, she should either stop or I would walk out of the room. I didn’t realise that I was actually dealing with a three year old at the time.

But treating her like a three year old has paid off, she is now showing respect. At times the drama starts again -especially over the phone- but then I don’t say anything and now she knows that once I don’t react it’s no point to continue and she will change subject. It’s almost like I’ve been reprogramming a mind to enable it to think positive.

I’m happy it worked out like this because the bond has become much stronger since. I guess the negative attitude must have rubbed off on others though, either that or it is a gene pool issue and passed on in families. I’ve chosen to let go of a close family member because she became the copy. Calling her, only brought me frustration.

Last time I’ve spoken with her she’d become so self-absorbed, it confirmed my decision made months earlier, not to contact her again. I guess people are shocked because I’ve not set my boundaries with them before. So when I tell them I don’t wish to continue an off-ballance relationship, they become angry with me for telling my truth…

There’s a point in your life when you get tired of trying to fix everything and trying to make everyone happy. When you finally decide to quit, it’s not giving up. It’s realising you don’t need certain people, the blah-blah and the unacceptable behavior they bring to your life.