I haven’t been around much, I’ve had an extremely stressful day this week, two actually. One caused by a client the other one caused by a printer that I trusted with business for this same client. I wonder at times what happened to common courtesy in this world. Why are some so afraid to admit to mistakes and feel the need to blame it on others? What’s keeping these people from being genuine and show some respect?
I honestly don’t understand and it has been bugging me ever since I had to deal with it that particular day. It’s been so bad that I woke up because of a freaky dream I had caused by the client from hell. I refuse to become a scapegoat for the lack of communication and problems they have within their own structure. But the nightmare told me that I didn’t say what I wanted to say because of different reasons.
The first is that I was caught off guard; since I had done nothing wrong I wasn’t expecting to become the focus of anger and frustration of others. The raging person on the other end of the land line refused to listen to me when I tried to point out that they were the ones responsible for stagnation. I can’t force them to deliver what is needed and I refuse to constantly chase them up. I’m doing them a favour, I shouldn’t have to.
The second reason all had to do with the fact that I wasn’t ready to defend myself and certainly not in a foreign language. I don’t play games and expect the same from others, my mistake coz that seems to be quite rare these days and more or less common practice. I refuse to degrade myself to their level so I kept quiet but when the right moment came, I did have a tone and made things clear but I wish I’d said a lot more.
Why? Because it showed up in the nightmare that I had that night. I wanted to understand the meaning of it so I googled and found three other people who had exactly the same dream or something similar. I was really surprised to see that someone else had dreamt exactly the same details which made me wonder if the ‘language’ of dreams is something that is set in our genes and our brain wave activity.
I would be the perfect case study to Jung and Freud, don’t you think? … 
© J. Waterhouse Circean poison
ps in case you wondered, I’ve removed the EW. link even though I’m at the top of blogs listed, because I no longer feel related to any of their ideas, policies etc. It became just another commercial website that is only willing to show the fake superficial glamour of a trailing spouse. Shame really…
Oh the dreaded “blame the consultant”. I’m out of clients right now, and one of the reasons I lost one in particular was through their own issues. It’s so difficult to deal with really sometimes.
I wanted to tell you – I have had some bizzare dreams lately, and everywhere I go (grocery store, gas station etc.) I’m over hearing folks say things about their dreams. So many having dreams that are “talking” to them lately. I wonder what it means?
Hugs and THANK you for commenting I missed you so much!
It was a treat to see my friend T. in my comments listing!!!!
Hugs and I hope their communication gets better!!
Isn’t it amazing how they try to blame stuff on the ones who are trying to help them? I just don’t understand the attitude… I’m sorry to hear about your business but I read on your blog that something good replaced it, I bet you’ll get more appreciation and acknowledgement from home than from those clients
Interesting about the dreams, you make me wonder now what’s going on in the Universe… I need to investigate because I would like some answers…
My nightmare was really freaky and not once but three times… I’m gonna give it some thought, would be an interesting topic for a new post 
Hugs back at ya, missed you too!!! Thanks Monica!