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True Friends

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Today I’ve send an email to my friends, telling them about my plans and what steps I’ll take to get there within the next six months. Sending out the email was a first step and the reactions are heart-warming so far. It tells me that I’m on the right path, it tells me that my true friends are my true friends because they understand my reasons and send me support emails. I’m still thinking about their reactions. I guess they must have noticed something even without me telling them how I feel about certain things.

It lifted up my spirit and I guess I should continue chasing that feeling and keep at it. I have no idea what will evolve over time but I trust my gut, my drive and my perseverance to show me when the time is right. I’m somewhat emotional about the response, their words meant so much to me. I’ll be seeing some of them in the next couple of weeks. I’m sure discussing this is going to add even more meaning. I know they’ll help me stay focused on what needs to be done. And once again I need patience, lots of it.

But the funny thing is, I know I will get where I want to be because there are people out there who believe in me, who are impressed by my decision of taking the risk to give up everything and start another new chapter in my life. It almost feels I took them for granted somehow, their opinions, the friendship that we share. They don’t tell me what I need to hear, they tell me their truth and it happens to be mine as well. I’m so grateful and blessed for having them in my life… For being who they are.

Change has already started, it feels scary but good! :)

New Light

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I’ve been updating the design of this website on and off, it’s a work in progress still and something that needs to be done in my spare time which is a luxury these days. I miss blogging and lately I have felt a strong urge to start writing again and pick up where I’ve left. There has been such a change in my life that I can’t even think of what to write first. Fact is though that it has and most in an extremely positive way. I’ve written about part of the changes in my previous post and how I felt I needed to redefine this blog.

So I have but it is going to show over time at a slow pace. Since I’ve started this blog as a personal diary about 10 years ago I have decided to unpublish some post that are no longer of any ‘use’ to me. They’re archived and I guess will be deleted at some point (or not). It’s still something I need to figure out, think about and make a decision. Some things I’d like to put behind me, some posts that I’ve written are fading memories that I’d either like to keep in my heart or like to forget. The latter is the reason for archiving or deleting: I am past that point and I have moved on, I’ve used it as a written waypoint at the time when I needed to stop, rethink and take action.

So ever since my last post, there has been personal turmoil on the side as well, pretty intense and undesirable but it’s the kind of stuff I do not wish to write about. It’s the kind of stuff that has been solved over time by giving it time to be solved if that makes sense. It might be best to let quiet take over and listen to what you’re being told by the Universe, I mean truly listen. And although my heart is still hurt at times, I’ve solved issues by being compassionate and learn to trust again which is the hardest part. Yes there has been damage but nothing that the strong-minded goat can’t cope with.

I’ve promised myself to focus ahead since I want to move away from deceitful scum and start with a clean slate. Ignoring the pathetic and childish stalker actions of the psychopathic cretin is one for instance. So here I am, slowly starting to write again and putting the past where it belongs: in the past. I feel like spring cleaning. Getting rid of the stuffy cretin -and other particles for that matter- that instantly make you cough or sneeze when lifted by sudden atmospheric velocity. It’s time to open the doors and let the light right in and sweep the dirt right out… :)