Tag Archives: Jealousy

Two-faced

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I’m tired of two-faced superficial people who claim to be a friend but really, they are far from it… One promise after another but you never see any result or action, just lame excuses or a dose of jealousy. I had an interesting chat at the hospital yesterday where some of these things were pointed out to me: it’s time to change scenery and only focus on real people. They’re the kind that won’t let me down in challenging circumstances. There are a few but at least I know they’re genuine and with integrity.

Another thing that was pointed out to me after I mentioned I felt stuck in a way was the fact that I’m actually not… being there that very moment, having that chat was movement… change… Getting that insight was necessary and nice! It felt good… And what a change it will be: it’s about time I cut that Gordian knot!

As the yellow gold is tried in fire, so the faith of friendship must be seen in adversity.

~ Ovid

xMas 2009

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xMas this year was an unusual one, it was quiet in a way but nice and cosy. I have to admit I do miss the traditional English way of celebrating although I’m glad that this year I didn’t have to deal with some female’s insecurity and snobbery like last year. As an adult I expect adult behaviour and I could do without the drama at the time.

But then again, that day wasn’t about this guest -certainly not- it was about the hosts! And they’d done a most excellent job organising! The food had the quality of that from a five star restaurant: amazing, exquisite and finger-licking good! I also had the privilege to sample and have a more traditional xMas dinner the previous year.

I really miss the kind of cooking that I usually do whether that is for a special occasion or just the daily routine. Having to deal with other people’s wishes and diets can be quite a daunting task especially when it’s not even appreciated most of the time. So I’m longing for the day that I can be my own chef in my own kitchen again.

I’m so gonna enjoy the peace and quiet and the fact that I can use my own pots and pans, my plates, cutlery, dishes and glasses again. That day I will celebrate and make myself some chocolate fondant so I can fully and totally indulge in the sweetness of the chocolate and the sweetness of having my own kitchen again…