Out with The Old in with The New

My ‘friend’… I don’t mind seeing you go since it seems you are in denial of my happiness, my life, my job and everything that defines me. When I sense envy instead and reluctance to nurture the relationship, than I guess you were right to be so quick to ‘unfriend’ and ‘block’ me on Facebook, for pointing this out to you. I guess the truth hits hard a times… :roll:

You barely respond to my emails not to mention react on the things that -you know- are important to me. You refuse to reply to my comments left for you on FB and instead turn this into a one-way street where all you do is absorb the attention you get from others. Life is not just about you. Perhaps that is a tough thing for you to grasp but it ain’t. Wake up call!

It’s sad that it has to be like this after such a long time, but I guess I haven’t been happy with the friendship nor with you and your reactions for a while now, but each time you’ve managed to brush it off. If you don’t want to be an active part of the communication process, it’s time for me to leave the relationship behind and gladly move on.

Yes I feel sorry for you that a certain issue in your life is happening and that you are scared of what the future will bring for you and your children. But it doesn’t mean that the world revolves around you and you only. Every person on this planet has got his or her own problems. You either deal with it or you don’t but don’t expect the ostrich attitude from me.

If you want others to be there for you when you need them, it might be wise to at least show some interest and care in case the day will come where you need them. I guess the fact that you immediately ‘unfriended’ and blocked me -after I told you my truth and how I felt about the situation-, says it all really. It was the kind of confirmation I was expecting.

It made me chuckle… As did your question about where my blog had gone? (..) It has been here since about ‘forever’… If you would’ve been interested in my life thus this blog, you would’ve known. So yes, that question seriously raised my eyebrow. I no longer feel comfortable being myself or sharing parts of my life with you, so it’s time to move on.

I have revalued my expectations and this friendship and I’m thru, I’m not your doormat whenever it suits you nor will I be your Facebook self-esteem booster whilst you play your well performed attention-seeker role. I’m actually quite happy with the way you left things; fact is that my personal growth has completely outgrown you and this friendship.

Thanks for making that perfectly clear, I can let go of something I’ve tried to hold on to for way way too long! It now can be replaced by something bigger and more beautiful :)

I do not open up the truth to one who is not eager to get knowledge, nor help out any one who is not anxious to explain himself. When I have presented one corner of a subject to any one, and he cannot from it learn the other three, I do not repeat my lesson.

On The Train

I’ve been commuting for quite some time now. Each day I take the train and travel for nearly an hour and half when it’s a good day… On bad days it takes me almost two hours depending on circumstances like the weather, what time I leave and how busy the train is. Today it’s rather quiet and on days like this I quite enjoy the trip.

At times people annoy the hell out of me -I’m quite easily annoyed in the morning I must admit tho- especially when I’m not awake yet. People these days seem to forget that they’re sharing the same space. They’re not aware they’re having extremely loud conversations on the phone. They have a tendency to scream.

Either that or they try to impress others who can overhear the conversation. I still haven’t figured it out and to be honest I don’t want to know. To me it’s all about courtesy, discretion and keeping in mind that the space you’re in is not your own. But today is a good day… It’s quiet on the train. So quiet that I can hear myself think.

So quiet that I can concentrate on writing this post on my Samsung tablet -a gift- since I decided to use the time on the train in a productive but fun way. I’ve been postponing and neglecting writing for way too long and like I mentioned before I do miss putting my thoughts in order for a while now.

It’s an excellent way to relax and finally start updating this blog again. The only downside is that I do not get to see the amazing views in the morning. Views of frosty meadows and the bright yellow sunrise… I ain’t complaining though. I’m pretty sure that one day -probably too soon- the wonderful quiet won’t be there.

And I’ll be harshly disturbed by annoying cackling sounds of people who talk senseless unimportant stuff over their phones… Bless the ignorant ones… *just being the usual synical me*