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Tense Week

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I’m tense and it ain’t fun, I’m tense because of past and present issues because of personal and professional issues, because words are left unspoken and if I do speak out I’m not understood. I’m tense because there is an issue that I’m avoiding while I should discuss it by creating the opportunity. I’m tense because others always seem to pull at me whenever I’m in need of solitude, they’re like moths drawn to a flame when all I want is quiet and peace of mind. I’m too tense and what is on the inside starts to show on the outside.

I’m being warned again that I’m handling things the wrong way, that I should act on it and do something about it or it only gets worse, so I can’t ignore no longer. My body is extremely good at forcing me to stop and listen to myself. It started out as headache last week, this week it nearly turned into a migraine. For the last two days my neck and arm becomes all stiff even if I stretch every 10 minutes. I can actually feel the muscles tighten up and no matter how often or how long I stretch, within the hour I’m in pain. Not just any pain, I wish it was…

So I’m gonna listen to my system and reboot: I’m done working today, work can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna reply to any more emails, it can wait till after the weekend. I’m not gonna answer any phone calls, I’m gonna spend time on fun things like my own projects and enjoying the sun that’s greeting me through the window. Sc£@%w it… I’m always looking after others and who’s looking after me? It can wait… I’ll be soaking in a hot bath because my neck and arm are screaming for heat therapy and relaxation, I could use a good massage too…

Enough is enough right? It’s about time I say no to people… no not today, today I take time for me, maybe tomorrow, but most likely on Monday. Have a wonderful weekend!

© Zesty Gal, I’m off relaxing!

Procrastinating Goat

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I really really need to stop being stubborn and I need to stop procrastinating. I know it’s a Goat’s thing but at times I really don’t do myself a favour by feeding this Goat trait of mine nice juicy green leaves just to keep it alive. I need to set priorities right but I’m weak and so easily distracted so I end up doing things that I shouldn’t be doing. I end up writing that email to a friend instead of staying focused and concentrate on work to be done as in building loads of websites…

Yesterday was a weird day, lucky me I had some moments with Leo in between appointments before he will be off to another unknown destination this morning. I had to see my GP about something that has been bugging me for five weeks already [five weeks seems to be the magic procrastination number somehow]. Leo made me call for an appointment last week, I’ve waited this long because my GP moved surgery and is now situated in the ‘badlands’, too far away.

So yes, once again Doc was upset with me for leaving it too long, so here I am having to take two different antibiotics twice a day for the next week, some other pills to suppress the symptoms and some other ugly looking drink mixture with morphine. No idea why I’m getting morphine [something you won’t easily get in the Lowlands but it seems to be quite normal here and in France as well btw] probably to take care of the pain I guess. Would make sense but still: I need a clear head…

And on top of that I’m supposed to go to the hospital again to have tests done. When do I have time to do this? See, that’s exactly where stubbornness creeps in… I’m in the middle of a serious deadline and I simply don’t have time. I also had to see my accountant yesterday which turned out to be quite fruitful, resulting in a two hour chat instead of half an hour that I’d asked him for, resulting in more work as in assignments and a discount. It seems things are slowly starting to pick up.

But boy… I need time… more time… and a lot of people seem to claim mine somehow, it’s not just one email a day, I receive about five a day and people are waiting for replies, both business and personal. So I’m gonna stop procrastinating today and crack on with it. No more replies to personal emails for a while, friends should understand that getting my life back on track is my number one priority. I’m gonna be stubborn but in a good sense… It’s called time management baby!

So instead of sending me an email it would be so much easier to post a comment for me here!

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