Rocky

Things are still a bit weird although he is there for me when things do get rocky and I am there for him when he has a bad day like yesterday… [Yes, he has really really bad days too, it takes two to tango and it takes two to trip on a bumpy road]. The other day when I was staring out of the window into the gardens I thought I saw something equivalent to a garden gnome. I’ve seen these things at garden centres in the Lowlands, they are rocks, or made of concrete and in the shape of some animal. But the thing was, I didn’t see it before so I thought to myself the neighbours must have bought it to decorate their garden. I still had a funny feeling about this rock so I decided to take a picture of it, telling myself I must have lost my mind taking pictures of rocks…
This is what I saw the other day:

Then a few days later when I had one of my bad days, feeling utterly sad and thinking about the whole situation, I found myself staring out of the window again into the neighbours garden looking for the rock near the little concrete bench. To my surprise [and confirmation of what I knew several days before, deep down, a gut feeling] I noticed that the rock had moved. Not just moved, it also was actually eating… Yes! A rock that’s eating… I’m not going insane and I took pictures again, so there you go, check them out below.


Turtle:
Mother Earth

By following the example of Turtle we can learn to ground ourselves in the nurturing and protective energy of the earth and to flow with its energies at a pace which assures completion of our tasks.
One of the lessons of Turtle is to slow down. All you have is time. When you don’t have time you’re dead.” Turtle, who lives a very long time and who has been on earth longer than any other vertebrate animal, has all the time in the world.
Turtle carries its house on its back, and when it feels attacked it withdraws into its protective shell. This can remind us that we carry within ourselves our own protection.
It is also a reminder of the importance of going within. We need to learn to withdraw not only when we feel threatened by the outside world, but in order to contemplate, to decide what our next direction will be.
Slow-moving, contemplative Turtle can also be described as grounded. When we feel as if things are happening too fast, or as if there’s too much to do, when we are great at starting projects and not so great at completing them, we can call on the energy of Turtle.
To be grounded doesn’t mean to be stuck in one place. Turtle travels very close to the earth and is intimately connected with the currents of Mother Nature’s energy. Because it moves so slowly it has the time to appreciate all of her creations.
So can we when we take the time that is always there, when we move more slowly along our own paths and enjoy the journey.
• Protection during any intense situation
• Those who have difficulty in being grounded.
• Those who feel disconnected from nature
• Those who are impatient or move through life in a hurry.

Appreciation

It’s almost amusing to notice how people tend to back away from you when something ‘bad’ happens in your life. It almost seems like you’re not allowed to feel sad, depressed, moody or any other, by society labelled as ‘bad’, emotion. Or they can’t seem to deal with it. Well I’m not going to apologise for having bad days and what you’ll read on my website are true feelings because I’m real and I don’t pretend to be happy when I’m not.
It reminds me of 2002 when my father died of cancer after being hospitalised for three months. It was a relief to finally let go of all the stress and to be able to let go of him in a very heartwarming and loving way. It was good because I had a chance to say goodbye to him and tell him everything I wanted him to know. Share my final thoughts and feelings. Those moments are priceless and I treasure them forever.
But back then some people didn’t have a clue how to deal with this and instead of giving support, they backed away quietly. Instead of trying to understand, they started to ignore. I have to admit that wasn’t easy for me and I have to admit at times I took it very personal. Friends turned out to be not such good friends at all, almost like a natural selection, only the true and strong ones survived. I clung on to the ones who were there for me till the end and they are still there for me here and now.
These days I know better and I try not to take things personal, in the end I will only have gained no matter what happens. I’ve received some really sweet emails over the last few days and that is exactly what I need right now, a funny picture, an interesting link, something light, a few kind words/lines, a comment etc. I would like to thank these people, you know who you are when you read this: some friends, some acquaintances, some I’ve never even met in the real world, only online.
Life comes with good and bad things, if it wasn’t for the bad I wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good…