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Easter Eggs

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I’m still recovering from an intense Easter Sunday so I’m not sure if what I will write in my post will make any sense. I guess I shouldn’t even try… Yesterday I went over to MvdM. and W.’s to spend the day there: eating, drinking, playing silly games and having fun. It’s been a while since I’ve had tears of laughter watching a guy doing a lap dance and totally cracking me up. It’s been a while since I took the piss out of friends because they couldn’t stand losing a silly game[s]. I came home at 06.45 this morning feeling totally knackered and ready to catch up on some sleep. After six hours of rest I still feel like I’m not on this planet so I haven’t done much today which is ok I guess. I’m just gonna have a slow day/evening and relax a bit.

MvdM. and W. cooked a lovely dinner yesterday and for the third time in my life I had lamb, which to some might seem as something not worth mentioning, but since this is the country of ‘lamb dinners’, admitting to anyone British, that you don’t like lamb is like committing an offence. So when MvdM. mentioned it the other day, I cautiously tried to explain to him that it’s not really one of my favourite dishes [shank], but I was willing to give it a try. I don’t like the strong flavour and the only two times I had it, the meat was either barbecued [chops] or minced [shish kebab]. Anything that is slightly gamey puts me off but I tried and I must say, I kind of liked it, although I probably would never order it at a restaurant. I had a traditional Sunday roast and it was good but I’d rather watch those lambs being silly.

It’s weird but even though I had a great Easter I can’t shake off that feeling of realisation and feeling sad on days like these. I had a tough, long, four-days-weekend altogether so being able to spend time with friends was an extremely welcome distraction. I was confronted again with ghosts from the past and certain decisions had to be made that forced me to think about what happened last year. Time is running out and I can feel the pressure and tension building up. It’s freaky because on one hand I’m getting the progress I was looking for but on the other it seems to trigger a negative impatient spurt with the other party. All of a sudden decisions are made for me, or I’m forced to decide about matters that I can’t decide about until my life is reconstructed again. Reality starts hitting me hard and more often.

I can sense change, which is good, if only I can stay sane while all of this is going on putting more and more pressure on me. I noticed I no longer fight things and instead agree quietly without a word, just for the sake of it. I wonder how much one is supposed to literally lose in order to gain or win. Was it really all worth fighting for in the end? Tomorrow is exactly one year ago and if I look back all I can see are struggles: a rough sea with gales, force ten at least… How I wish to find my harbour and a beautiful calm sea where I can sit on a bench listening to the still life in front of me. How I long to have Easter breakfast accompanied by that one person who is closer to me than anyone else and yet so far away; I know he would hide eggs for me, just for me, because he wants me to be happy and be silly for a moment.

Perhaps next year…

Listening to the still life…

Google Queen

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I received an email today a few hours ago which is the second offer I received in a week’s time to be an editor and/or write for blogs. The first option was sent to me through email by MvdM.: he asked me to contribute articles about ‘things to do’ in London related to art, design, photography etc. and become an editor of his professional blog aimed at the business he’s in which is related to photography. I would have plenty of time to write something or look into things. Of course I agreed to do this because it’s fun and he’s a close friend! Although I’m always surprised to hear that people like my writing and read it, I’m flattered, yes…

The second email I received started with: ‘You have a great writing. I have enjoyed the articles on your blog’ which I thought was quite funny because according to my stats this person didn’t spend much time on my blog at all. He was offering me a so called ‘journalist’ function as part of some kind of bloggers news community which seemed to be based in India. I would never just trust any email that I’ll get thru my blog from any stranger that is offering me anything in particular. People will have to earn my trust no matter whether I expose myself to the outside world through my blog or not. Just because they can read my stories doesn’t mean I have to allow them access to other aspects of my life.

And because I have antennae I’m pretty good at separating the wheat from the chaff… So something started buzzing straight away… and because I consider myself the Google Queen I did what I’m good at. I searched the World Wide Web for information and found exactly what I was looking for. A confirmation to my gut feeling. So my answer to those who contacted me today is a loud no, thank you! I don’t write to collect followers. I’m not interested in your offer and I’m not writing to make money: I don’t want the four bucks, you could donate it to charity and please don’t contact me again… you really underestimate my intelligence.

On a different note: I’ve decided to put some more positive Qi in the office… I’m not really into the Feng Shui thing, well at least not conscious that is, perhaps on a subconscious gene-wise level, but adding some extra positive energy never did anyone any harm *hehe*. So I bought some Chinese lucky bamboo [Fu Gui Zhu] and organised a glass vase and some nice tiny stones to hold the bamboo. I bought six of them, yes I am superstitious. Like I said earlier, it comes with the genes *wink* Anyway… six of these silly stems because the word six sounds like “Luck” in Chinese and will bring me prosperity and favorable conditions.

My Qi spot *hehe*

My bit of luck *wink* [yes the pic on my monitor is one I took as well]