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Riding The Tidal Wave

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A friend and I were discussing life in general in an email the other day and noticed that we both seem to have some kind of energy flow going on in our lives. A flow that’s rising and falling like a tidal wave, one moment it can be steady and quiet, the next it becomes this huge wave crushing everything that gets in the way.

Right now there is such an immense change going on that I can feel the energy rushing through each and every aspect of my life. It feels strange in a way, even scary at times but I’m trying to hold on to this feeling and accept it as it is. There’s no point trying to go against it -even if I wanted to- because I’d drown for sure.

I think I might have fought it if this would’ve happened a few weeks ago but I feel so ready this time that I’m allowing things to happen. Today I received a really nice email and if all goes well I might have reasons to have a celebration after the summer break. I can feel it in my gut that I’m about to get the long expected break.

Today is a happy day and I’m grateful for all the new opportunities that have been presented to me over the last two weeks. I feel that energy rushing and I’m finally ready to cling on to it and go with the flow. Change can be amazingly powerful if you let it and once you can, it comes with such a great unexpected force!

I don’t think I could ever go back to the person I was before if I wanted to, but I don’t want to. I’m happy with my newly found strength and like I mentioned in my previous post, it all started to bear fruit, in my social life and in business. It’s hard to put that kind of gratitude in words because I don’t think it could be described very well…

I’ve decided to go on a strict health regime starting this Friday when I will register at the gym. I’m planning on getting up early each morning, exercise for an hour and a half, go home and start my day properly. Since I’ve started the courses almost six weeks ago I’ve built up this daily rhythm that I’d like to continue.

Tomorrow will be my last day at the course and I will truly miss the people that I’ve met there. Twelve different people, different in age, culture and social background but each of them has taught me something that I will treasure for the rest of my life. There were serious times and there was lots of fun and laughter.

I will continue my quest though because I’ll have another three months to work on my career change and dream job while I’m being coached by a really nice woman whom I’ve met last week. More self-exploration and hopefully more insight, to discover the small steps that I’ll need to take in order to reach my goal.

I’ve also been extremely creative lately, I’ve sketched a lot and I’ve been working on my painting. I’m having a great time using acrylics and developing my own technique. I’ve been very active on FB as well but I should be careful because it can be time-consuming especially when certain friends show a special interest…

Anyway… I’m all energetic and happy so if I become quiet again on here, it’s because I’m enjoying this energy the best I can!

© (?) – Riding the wave

Bear Fruit

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‘According to trend watchers, defriending will be the trend. Large numbers of people will delete vague acquaintances from their networking sites, such as Facebook, and Linkedin, because they only want to keep quality contacts. It has to do with slowing down, the need for quality time, and perhaps some network site fatigue, according to all sorts of trend blogs, which seem to echo each other.’

I just read the above snippet in an online newspaper, it confirms my feeling about the whole networking issue. I’ve mentioned in a previous post that someone refuses to reply to a friendly email that I’d sent responding to the invitation that I received from the same person. In the meantime I’ve sent another email making her aware of her non-responsive manners. I told her that it’s okay if she doesn’t want to stay in touch but that I’d like to know where I stand. So far no reaction… I was assertive but friendly so obviously the next friendly thing to do is to defriend her from the network.

I’ve always seemed to look for excuses or reasons to justify other people’s behaviour but I’ve learnt over the last few weeks that the only way to find out what’s on a person’s mind is to be clear about things and be straightforward, in other words assertive. I’m not used to being assertive and I have put myself in situations that became utterly frustrating because of this. I take full responsibility and I can’t blame others for misreading my mixed signals. I’ve changed my ways, since it didn’t make me happy having to deal with the consequences and I’ve noticed that it started to bear fruit!

If I can get rid of clutter in boxes than I should definitely be able to get rid of the clutter in my social life. The other situation seems to be slightly improving as well although I’m reluctant to trust this person to keep her promise and pay me back my money. The good thing is that if there’s no progress soon that I’ve collected enough facts to see a solicitor over time and trust me, I will… the friendship is finished as far as I’m concerned. It hurts in a way, because I’ve know this person for a long time but she broke my trust many times over the last three year so it’s best for me to let go and move on.

I have some exciting news but it’s all depending on a few circumstances so I’m going to be a bit cautious. I’ve had to deal with so many disappointments that I’ve decided not to mention anything until there is some real results. That way I won’t have expectations and I won’t disappoint myself if things are canceled once again. One has to do with a possible job offer the other has to do with a new study that I’ll start and a future plan I’m working on that involves a partner in crime… I’ve teamed up with someone but it’s all still very fresh so we have to discuss the details and plan soon.

If all goes well, I will let go of the old career slowly while preparing for the new career. I’ll have a meeting on the 8th of June to see if the study is what I expect it to be. If so, than I’ll need to prepare a case to make sure that I’ll get the funding. I have a lot of work to do in the next couple of months but it feels good to be working on my future… it does! I already met some really nice people who offered help even when I didn’t ask, they just did… Those are the kind of people I’d like to surround myself with, people who appreciate you for who you are, quality contacts and possible friends…

It all starts to bear fruit!

© Dreamstime – Mouthwatering