Sweetest Revenge

I remember that one early morning -when I was a kid- my mother came into my room. I guess it must have been Saturday or Sunday since it was early but I wasn’t up yet to go to school, instead I was in a deep sleep when she woke me. She came into my room calling my name and I asked her what was going on. She told me to get out of bed and look outside through the window. I was still very sleepy and my bed felt nice, cosy and warm, I didn’t want to get up but I did anyway. I walked over to the window where she stood and pulled the curtains away.

The moment I had pulled the curtains she said to me ‘Do you see the horse attached to the post of that street light over there?’ whilst pointing her finger in a certain direction. I tried to see where her finger was pointing and saw different street lights but no horse to be seen anywhere. So I asked her ‘Where do you see a horse mum?’. She said ‘Over there…’ pointing in the same direction as she did earlier. Again I looked but couldn’t see a horse attached to a street light. I was confused and when she noticed the puzzled expression on my face, she said ‘April Fool!’.

I’ve never forgotten that moment of feeling tricked and being intrigued and amused at the same time, until this day I have to chuckle each year when April Fools’ Day comes around thinking about how my mum played the joke on me. But last night I finally had my moment of revenge after almost 40 years. And it was sweet ;) I called her last night around 23.00 because I’d promised to call and also to tell her that I’d had an interview that day about a new assignment and to ask her how she was doing. She sounded a bit depressed and not too happy about life in general.

At times she gets these moods where nothing seems to matter anymore and she seems tired of life. I won’t go into details because those are private but she does have a tendency to be negative and complain about certain things, expecting others to solve these issues for her. So I guess I’m kind of used to this pattern and won’t let it get to me. I will lend an ear and express sympathy but will not hold back to tell her the truth every so often if she is willing to listen that is. She can be pretty tough on herself raising the bar too high and ‘punishing’ herself accordingly…

*hmmm I know of this other person and a bar as well, as I write I observe and learn ;) *

We were talking for about an hour and half when I noticed the date and time on my MacBook Air, it showed fri 1 apr. 00:34. I immediately got this idea in my mind and started grinning from ear to ear wondering if it would work after nearly 40 years or not. So I interrupted my mum and asked her if she could get out of her chair for a moment. To my surprise she did without even asking questions. So I told her to go to the window and asked if the blinds were down, she said they were only halfway. Then I told her to move closer to the window and have a good look.

I asked her if she could see the street light, she answered she could. Then I asked her if she could see the donkey attached to it… And she bursted out in laughter! She remembered exactly what I was on about and smirked in triumph about something that happened nearly 40 years ago. We both had a good laugh. I said to her ‘I finally have my sweet revenge, do you realise what you did to me all those years ago you bad bad mother?’ and we laughed some more. It was a really nice, close moment that we shared together both silly laughing and grinning.

But the best part was when we were about to hang up she said to me that she was going to bed and that she would probably still be grinning whilst trying to get some sleep and even the day after in the morning when she would wake up. It was nice to realise that I had the ability to turn her slightly bad day into a better one even if it was at her expense… ;)

Delay

It’s one of those days where you get up and know everything will go wrong… I’m on the train and it already has a 15 minutes delay due to the fact that another broke down in the north of this speck on the globe. In that area there’s only two tracks, one for each train, each way. So when a train breaks down they all pile up like one happy family. Since they run every 15 minutes you probably can do the math yourself.

I’m on the train and I know for sure that I’ll be late eventhough I was actually running late already. This was the train that I was supposed to take anyway… I will be late but I can’t really be bothered. At times you have to let go of the timetables in your head because if you don’t, stuff is going to pile up just like those trains. So I decided to let go and trust that things will work out eventually. It will all fall in place…

That’s not what I was thinking tho this morning when I accidentally smudged and stained eyeliner all over my mouth and chin and my first thought was ‘wtf…’ That’s not what I was thinking when I got dressed and whilst doing my hair, trying to get ready to get to work asap. It wasn’t the kind of morning I was expecting at all when I woke up, still tired and wanting to sleep forever.

I’m on the bus now and even the bus is running late but like I said earlier I can’t be bothered. It’s pissing down with rain today -the sky is totally grey- so it’s gonna rain all day long, but I can’t be bothered. Honestly… It’s like I’ve given up, coz I know I can’t do a thing about it. I have no control over any of this so why would I try to go against it? I would only start to frustrate myself in doing so. So I don’t.

I’m sure things will turn out alright eventually, I’m sure there is a bigger plan today that is going to make things right, the moment I’ll trust it to do what it’s supposed to do. So I’m going to finish writing and have a look around me instead. Grey skies, watery images and the smell of wet raincoats on a lovely dreary day ;) I’d better stop writing or else I might become bus sick and puke allover myself… *hehe*

Have a beautiful day!