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Procrastinating Goat

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I really really need to stop being stubborn and I need to stop procrastinating. I know it’s a Goat’s thing but at times I really don’t do myself a favour by feeding this Goat trait of mine nice juicy green leaves just to keep it alive. I need to set priorities right but I’m weak and so easily distracted so I end up doing things that I shouldn’t be doing. I end up writing that email to a friend instead of staying focused and concentrate on work to be done as in building loads of websites…

Yesterday was a weird day, lucky me I had some moments with Leo in between appointments before he will be off to another unknown destination this morning. I had to see my GP about something that has been bugging me for five weeks already [five weeks seems to be the magic procrastination number somehow]. Leo made me call for an appointment last week, I’ve waited this long because my GP moved surgery and is now situated in the ‘badlands’, too far away.

So yes, once again Doc was upset with me for leaving it too long, so here I am having to take two different antibiotics twice a day for the next week, some other pills to suppress the symptoms and some other ugly looking drink mixture with morphine. No idea why I’m getting morphine [something you won’t easily get in the Lowlands but it seems to be quite normal here and in France as well btw] probably to take care of the pain I guess. Would make sense but still: I need a clear head…

And on top of that I’m supposed to go to the hospital again to have tests done. When do I have time to do this? See, that’s exactly where stubbornness creeps in… I’m in the middle of a serious deadline and I simply don’t have time. I also had to see my accountant yesterday which turned out to be quite fruitful, resulting in a two hour chat instead of half an hour that I’d asked him for, resulting in more work as in assignments and a discount. It seems things are slowly starting to pick up.

But boy… I need time… more time… and a lot of people seem to claim mine somehow, it’s not just one email a day, I receive about five a day and people are waiting for replies, both business and personal. So I’m gonna stop procrastinating today and crack on with it. No more replies to personal emails for a while, friends should understand that getting my life back on track is my number one priority. I’m gonna be stubborn but in a good sense… It’s called time management baby!

So instead of sending me an email it would be so much easier to post a comment for me here!

:P

The Unknown

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I’ve been spoiled over the last three days, spoiled with beautiful comments, surprises, emails, spoken words, gifts, pictures, flowers and views. They make me sigh… in a good way that is. I had a bit of a struggle for a week being left in the dark about the whereabouts of someone. But that week made me realise some valuable things and how sweet it was to find the surprise of an unexpected homecoming after all those days wondering how and where, moving thousands of kilometres in only a few days.

Last week the unknown caused a stomach ache and a constant restless feeling. I had to take it slow because of the RSI problem so there was no distraction which made things ‘worse’. This week I know it will be much easier to adjust. Extremes bring you either discomfort or utter bliss and my life seems to be going from one extreme to another on different levels and somehow totally out of control and then again not. There’s one thing I learned over the last ten years which is to let go of certain control. These days I’ll try to just let things happen and balance somewhere in the middle like a tightrope walker in my own circus.

Time has come to ‘let go’ again and prepare for another period of unknown but it feels different. Certain situations force you to look at things from a different angle, probably one you were reluctant to try but when you do, you realise it’s actually better since it’s forcing you to adopt a more direct approach. Making you aware of things taken for granted and showing to appreciate instead. I was told once, some words could grow old and lose their meaning over time when said too often. I don’t agree, it’s how they’re received/perceived by the other, whether he/she is willing to hear the true meaning and value this accordingly.

You either choose to see or you don’t… I learned not to wait for the right moment because there is no such thing as the right moment, here and now is all I’ve got. And so I feel I should say what I want to say, or do what I want to do without having second thoughts. Which is exactly what I did over the last three days and because of that I can ‘let go’ not having to think about the ‘ifs’, ‘could’ves’, ‘should’ves’ or ‘would’ves’. Intense? Yes! But at least I can say I genuinely chose to live that moment, besides, nothing comes easy being a Capricorn and deep thinker…

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Other:

– I just had my 10000th hit on this website *hehe*

– RSI is much better but I’m still not pushing it so will visit your blogs but I still might be just reading

– Slowly getting back to work again, my client is waiting for some progress on their online shop

– Monica, thank you for my award! It’s my first I will collect and write soon, how sweet of you!

:D