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The Fox Foxing (again)…

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I ran into some info today that made me grin in a way… I know I shouldn’t but it did. Let me go back to the days of ignorance and bliss in a few… I wish I could trust my gut more often, I used to though but these days I tend to neglect it when I need it most. Back in the days -it seems ages ago- I was seeing someone whilst at the same time my gut kept warning me in a variety of different ways. I remember the dream I had repeatedly during that period of my life, it’s so vivid still that it feels like it has transformed into an actual thing. And I guess in a way it has.

In the dream there was nothing but a traffic light that jumped from green to red, lasting only about 20 seconds. The traffic light would disappear again and another dream would continue. Each time when a regular dream was entered by the person I was seeing, it stopped and immediately the traffic light would appear for a few seconds and disappear again the moment it had turned red. At the time I thought it was odd and I wondered often why this was happening. One evening I decided to ask the person I was seeing if he could explain to me what it could mean or meant to him.

He said he didn’t know and I asked if I was being warned for something he was doing without me knowing of it but he said he couldn’t think of anything. About five months later I found out the truth and realised why I’d been having these dreams and what my subconscious was trying to tell me. By then he had moved in and I decided to confront him with the lies and deceit. I’d issued an ultimatum by promising myself I would give it another chance, wait a couple of months and let it rest. When those months were over I checked again only to find out about broken promises.

That evening I kicked him out and I have not looked back. Ever since that day there have been others and because there was a trail of issues in his past I assumed it would not be long before history would repeat itself. I found out I’ve been right all along which was what made me grin. I feel sorry for those involved but since one’s dealing with a sly fox it was to be expected and the grin was merely an expression of what I was thinking: good riddance!

Karma Only Has Nine Lives

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Something I wrote a while ago on another part of the interwebs, I will delete it there but wanted to keep it here as a reminder. It was written on: 24 February 2011 at 17:23

Life might throw another curveball at you when you least expect it. I’ve become a good catcher over time and my hand signalling has immensely improved since I took control that way. Running away will only get you so far -read: nowhere-, it’s just a matter of time before things will catch up on you. Best to face the unexpected instead, see what lesson you can learn from it and take responsibility for your actions in life.

Things happen for a reason and many times I’ve chosen not to listen to that inner voice that was screaming at me. The harder it screamed the harder I tried to ignore it. Until one day it became silent and I experienced one of those epiphany moments, realising something was wrong. From then on I decided to change my ways and no longer ignore each and every omen that would come to me, good or ‘bad’…

I’ve had many since: all small gifts from the universe. Like a constellation of bright stars that I stare at at night, my personal map pointing out to me where I should go next. It’s in the moment, here and now. It’s the message hidden in those who cross my path and enter my life and those who will leave again. When you let go of negative people and dissemblers, situations, things, then others will appear: the positive kind.

The kind that you wish to embrace, the kind that gives you all the energy you’ll need to grow and shine. The genuine kind. FB is one of these things that is taking energy and hardly returning any. It is the sad result of a society that needs the ego stroking heroin because they’ve forgotten how to listen to their inner voice. Some of my friends have come to the same conclusion and decided to stay away from FB.

I’ve made that decision too -a while ago actually- and will only post every now and then or check on people to see how they’re doing. I need my energy to make my dream come true, I owe that to myself. Things happen for a reason (e.g. bursitis I dealt with). It only means that I should channel my energy more effectively and that something bigger, better and more fulfilling is waiting for me. The universal law of cause and effect.

Open star cluster Pismis 24

The small open star cluster Pismis 24 lies in the core of the NGC 6357 nebula in Scorpius, about 8,000 light-years away from Earth. ©Nasa, Instituto de Astrofísica de Andalucía, Spain