A Mystery…

Monday I had my blood test done and for the first time, ever since I’ve moved here, I was confronted with the bureaucracy of the UK health system and I was not happy about it to be honest. What could have been done in about five minutes took fifty minutes instead and I was sent from one place to the other and back again; most annoying, especially if you don’t have much energy and want things to be done and over with asap. After fifty minutes I finally ended up waiting for my turn to have blood taken and was in and out in five minutes, no pain, no bruises this time.

Today I had to see the doctor to discuss the results of all the previous tests so I took the bus again to the hospital and waited for the doctor to come see me which took about twenty minutes. She took me to a room to discuss things. She told me, all the tests had come out negative for hepatitis, which was a major relief to me. So the only reason why I ended up in hospital with a liver malfunction could be the Chinese tea that I have been drinking for five weeks.

The doctor said I have been lucky, I went to hospital on time, I could’ve ended up having severe liver damage, she said people have died of the Chinese tea treatment. It’s like having allergies, it could harm some but others might never be affected at all. She said this must have come as a bit of a shock to me and if I’m honest it is in a way. I really put my faith and trust in this treatment only to find myself in hospital five weeks later… I will have to come back for more blood test in three/four weeks and take things slow in the meantime.

I have to say I’m happy about the test results but it all remains some kind of mystery to me still…

The hospital, beautiful building

Mystery Man

I had a dream last night. I was invited to a housewarming of a friend of mine who had moved into some new fancy area. On my way there near the entrance of the building, I ran into an old friend of the family [my friend’s family] that I haven’t had seen for ages. A gentleman, slightly older; he started talking to me and was happy to see me. He said ‘come, there is something I need to show you’ and he held me like he was about to start dancing; holding my hand in his and an arm around my waist. He whispered in my ear ‘I’ve heard of what you’re going through, what you’ve gotten yourself into…’

Then he started dancing with me and we were lifted from the ground, slowly moving in circles. While we were lifted he showed me all the different types of flowers on the balconies of the building, flying through the air moving up and down along the balconies. There was one particular balcony that I liked and I asked him to show it to me again. There were these beautiful wild flowers blooming in white, violet and deep purple colours [bearded iris, loosestrife]. The flowers on each balcony were amazingly beautiful and I felt so safe, comfortable and happy while being in his arms, dancing in the air and looking around, I was laughing and smiling.

We slowly drifted back on the floor again when he said to me in a serious tone of voice: ‘if only I could make you see, make it clear to you… for all those years…’ He didn’t finish his sentence and suddenly started to rattle away about good old times and memories. I could guess what he had tried to tell me and for a few seconds I looked at him as if he had changed into a completely different person. I saw some qualities I had never noticed before and realised he could make me see things in a different perspective, he could make me enjoy the beauty of nature, flowers and probably a lot more…

It all felt so familiar to me and while looking at him -chatting away while he held on to me tightly- I knew everything would be alright again. I just had discovered something really precious, a deja-vu of my future…