It’s one of those days again… I’m feeling slightly stressed because there’s too much going on. My friend is still in hospital and I’m waiting for T. to give me a call about her condition. They started surgery this morning at 11.00 and when I called him earlier he was on his way to the hospital. They’re trying to remove the blood clot from the brain which is something I really don’t want to think about at the moment. I am supposed to design her wedding announcement because they’re supposed to get married in June. If her situation gets worse I will book a flight, no matter what…
I hate having to wait I just wish I could do something, it’s somewhat frustrating… 
I’m also not happy about my own situation, I received the results of the tests yesterday: they’ve found abnormal cell growth so the surgery will take place in March and after that I will have to have it checked every six months. I guess I’m feeling a bit down today and I reckon I have a good reason[s] to feel that way… Bear with me, it will pass.
Yesterday morning
Standby
A. is going to be on standby all weekend, starting Friday afternoon… He told me he will receive about 30 calls during the day and night *nice* He said:”you are going to be grumpy and pissed off with me…” So far we have been lucky while still in the Lowlands we only had one serious night in three years where I had no sleep at all. All the other times were fine, just a few calls mostly during the day and one or two during the night. I would get up as well and spend some time working on projects, I don’t really mind as long as I get some sleep.
This time will be different; his colleagues told him that he will have to get some sleep whenever possible, daytime or night-time, by the sound of it it is going to be hectic… I won’t get pissed off with him, after all it’s not his fault that computers are not flawless, nor are people. I dread this weekend though [and the next; same thing] because I do need some sleep and I will be grumpy once I’m in my REM phase, suffering from temporary paralysis and peaking brain activity and some moron who doesn’t have a life decides to page mine.
I reckon IT goes hand in hand with sleepless nights and I better have my projects ready so I can work on it while my brain seems to be peaking, I might come up with some really cool ideas…