Out with The Old in with The New

My ‘friend’… I don’t mind seeing you go since it seems you are in denial of my happiness, my life, my job and everything that defines me. When I sense envy instead and reluctance to nurture the relationship, than I guess you were right to be so quick to ‘unfriend’ and ‘block’ me on Facebook, for pointing this out to you. I guess the truth hits hard a times… :roll:

You barely respond to my emails not to mention react on the things that -you know- are important to me. You refuse to reply to my comments left for you on FB and instead turn this into a one-way street where all you do is absorb the attention you get from others. Life is not just about you. Perhaps that is a tough thing for you to grasp but it ain’t. Wake up call!

It’s sad that it has to be like this after such a long time, but I guess I haven’t been happy with the friendship nor with you and your reactions for a while now, but each time you’ve managed to brush it off. If you don’t want to be an active part of the communication process, it’s time for me to leave the relationship behind and gladly move on.

Yes I feel sorry for you that a certain issue in your life is happening and that you are scared of what the future will bring for you and your children. But it doesn’t mean that the world revolves around you and you only. Every person on this planet has got his or her own problems. You either deal with it or you don’t but don’t expect the ostrich attitude from me.

If you want others to be there for you when you need them, it might be wise to at least show some interest and care in case the day will come where you need them. I guess the fact that you immediately ‘unfriended’ and blocked me -after I told you my truth and how I felt about the situation-, says it all really. It was the kind of confirmation I was expecting.

It made me chuckle… As did your question about where my blog had gone? (..) It has been here since about ‘forever’… If you would’ve been interested in my life thus this blog, you would’ve known. So yes, that question seriously raised my eyebrow. I no longer feel comfortable being myself or sharing parts of my life with you, so it’s time to move on.

I have revalued my expectations and this friendship and I’m thru, I’m not your doormat whenever it suits you nor will I be your Facebook self-esteem booster whilst you play your well performed attention-seeker role. I’m actually quite happy with the way you left things; fact is that my personal growth has completely outgrown you and this friendship.

Thanks for making that perfectly clear, I can let go of something I’ve tried to hold on to for way way too long! It now can be replaced by something bigger and more beautiful :)

I do not open up the truth to one who is not eager to get knowledge, nor help out any one who is not anxious to explain himself. When I have presented one corner of a subject to any one, and he cannot from it learn the other three, I do not repeat my lesson.

Kill This Feed

To those of you out there who might still read this blog thru the feed. I’m going to kill it. I have different reasons for this but the main one is that I’ll be in a position where I can’t take the risk that this blog is found because of the exposure of its feed. I’m not writing this blog because of others, I’m writing this blog because I need a place to vent at times. A personal spot that I’ve built over the years and that I’d like to keep to myself.

I’ll be working for a large company as a senior web designer and I need to keep private things private. I won’t be writing about work because it would go against some of my principles. But I wouldn’t want others to find my personal thoughts on certain issues either. And I don’t see why I would keep this feed alive if those who are reading this blog already have the available url: it means you would have to come visit instead…

I realise that might be a bit inconvenient to some but a girl’s got to do what a girl’s got to do. And that’s that… I’ve been Googled when I applied for jobs (they either told me during an interview or I could tell through stats or other tools/ways) and although I’ve made sure that tracks have been removed if one is really clever one will be able to find what he/she is looking for. I’ll leave this post here for a week or so before I’ll kill the feed.